in need

Been working last sat and sun.

Hope i have time to study as i have to start working again this friday.

Recently there were many unhappy events happening.

I guess that i am unlucky.

But well,going to enjoy marcus birthday celebrations tomorrow.

Glad that i am going to see hei family again :).

Happy birthday ^_^

Hope you like the present.

Well today i went to pets republic to see if there is the guinea pig i wanted.

I found one similar but not really the one i wanted.

And it`s expensive $180 T_T!

Ya i went there ALONE again.

It was unbearable as there was no MUSIC in my phone and i am going to such a far place.

JURONG EAST!

After that went to plaza singapura to celebrate his birthday with mark,joyce and i forget his name chin feng?
I was late so sorry make his friend wait for so long.
The train we took terminate 3 times and that makes it even worse!

When we reached there we wanted to watch step up,but only left the front two seats so never watched.

Then we went to macdonalds to eat and chat.

We spent most of our time thinking what to do next.

After we FINALLY decided on how to spend rest of our day,we went to the pc bunk there to play truth or dare with the bottle that was left at the macdonald`s table by some people who sat there before we came LOL.

That is when i know some of their hidden secrets and it was funny when we did dare like asking people for number and did some idiotic stuff etc XD.

Played untill 11pm plus then we trained home.

After reached my house void deck,chatted with mark for awhile then i went home.

Suddenly talk about my past about the "two C".

As i mention them i felt sad and i wanted to cry but no tears came out LOL!

Felt that i was kind of stupid too.

I only all these "past" to my good friends.

Only they know.

Now mark you also know!

I do not know why i told you but you should be honoured hahas!

I only told this to all my close friends before =\.

Tomorrow and sun going to work at imm hush puppies!

Thanks to lingyu for the intro :).

Alright i am going to sleep now.

Goodnight people.

Shall upload all the photos tomorrow!

Random fact about me :): I hate bandung!!!

Oh no~

I am thinking of getting a guinea pig~OINKKKKK~

But there are so many choices for me to choose.

However i like the most de orange brown de but dun have T_T.

There is also a white/brown one also very cute.

Most likely i will get that.

But there is a grey one which is also quite cute and it`s cheaper!

HOW!!!T_T

I already think of what christmas present i want le!

A GUINEA PIG!

But what i want most is still a lionhead rabbit(the one that appear in my dream).

But it is too ex lah.

I already come up with my christmas list(too early i know XD)

3 things i want for christmas~

1: Save up for that lionhead rabbit.

2: See u-kiss(pray for them to come to singapore in december T_T)

3: IPOD ^_^

Santa i am not too greedy.

Get me one of this will do.

Especially the second one please ^_^!

Went to sing K at top one yesterday.

$18.

Ex sia T_T.

Now there is a big hole in my pocket.

Talked to ger at the phone yesterday.

Long time never chat with her.

She said she only have 15 minutes to spare.

But ended up talking for 2 hours XD.

To be continued~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUISHAN!
I put this in purple wor.
Your favourite colour =DDD!

This post is specially delicated to her.
Touched ma?
Hahas.

LASTLY,what i want to say today is.
I want to leave this place.
Not as in die or anything.
I want to go somewhere far away.
Where nobody knows me there.
A place where i can start anew.
A place where i can truely be myself.
Me.
To be honest,the person you see now isn`t the real me.
But there is one person i realise i unknowingly showed my true self.
I wonder how she made me do that.
She must be an incredible person then :D.
I must admit that i am tired truely tired.
In the past,no matter how much i rebel and protected my own dreams and pride,not only they do not support me,they will use a different perspective to look at me(and of course it is a negative one).
They may not say anything infront of you(i rather they say it) and when they finally do say it,it really make me disappointed.
As i realised,in their eyes,i was always "like this or like that"(also negative) when i have no idea they think of me that way.
I guess that is why i hide my true self to avoid disappointment.
It hurts even more when this happened with your good friend.
They might appear that they are alright with my opinion,but deep down is another story.
Maybe this also means that i no longer trusts people around me that lead to all the facade(the mask).
I am tired of all this facade.
I don`t want to hide my real self.
It is tiring.
Really tidous.
I had enough hiding my true self just to make the people around me happy.
But have they ever thought of me?(Maybe some)
I have this urge to go to a new place because afterall what i have shown now is already implicted in people.
I really hate one thing about myself.
Why!!!
Why can`t i see the negative traits of people.
Some people have the ability to turn good traits of people into bad traits.
Some people have the ability of gossiping about others without any karma retribution happening to them.
Why man!!!
Why can`t i do the same?
I would feel so much better LOL!
I learnt the art of gossiping through my friends.
Now i am learning to use it too LMAO.
But i really do not like it.
It just one of the ways to get back at people i guess.
I believe in karma so i believe in getting back at people who do bad things.
That is the only way they will learn.
Punishment.
That is to help good people who are suffering that good people deserve good treatment!
Ok i think that is all for now.
I sound so draggy why do i always talk so philosopical =\.
I want a new life of adventures,happiness and something out of the ordinary =D.
Can my wish be granted?=D

I have a wish.
No maybe i should call it my aim.
If you ask me what i want to become.
I would say.
I want to become an angel.
Why???
Because angels protects and they shine so "prettifully"(i prefer the word pretty over beautiful =x).
They are also god most wonderful appretice.
Then why do i not want to be god?
God is the supreme ruler(Strongest,most powerful,most respected etc).
Anio Anio.(It means no in korean).
Being an angel is better because they are loved and protected by god.
They may not be the most powerful.
But they do not have to worry about anything and make BIG decisions.
They are always happy and carefree.
They are like the children of god,innocent and childlike.
I think it suits me more.
So if i could i would want to be reincarnated as an angel.
Even though i have no religion or remain neutral about whether god exists.
But i do think it is happier to believe that god exists, at least even though nobody loves you,there is still god =D and he will always be there for you.

My belevod idol kevin woo.His voice is jjiang *_* as in lovely and superb.

Hi eka!

Well i had nothing much to do at home and i dun really mind rotting at home.
As school is so drama these days.
So happy happenings.
And scandals =x.
Xueli and jeremy scandal hahahahahaha.
Oh two days ago was her birthday.
I remembered why she cried the day before her birthday.
It shocked all of us.
She said she would tell me the day after but she didn`t :(.
No matter how we asked she refused to tell.
I have to remind myself to spend more time with my hamsters.
I seem to be neglecting them as i was very busy.
I am sorry my dear furry friends :(.
To make up for it i shall post all of your cute pictures tomorrow :D!
Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.
Going to eat botak jones (Y) with hei family and going to my grandma house!
I hope to see that small little gloomy bear again.
I am not going to get it escape from my clutches if i ever see it!
MUAHAHA!
Oh and i had a weird dream yesterday.
Hmm i cannot seem to recall but it is something like i was on a mission.
Some evil people was looking for me and wanted my power or something.
Then turn me into their kind!>.<
So i had to train and stregthen my power so that i can protect myself.
There was this certain head magician or something helping me and guiding me whereever i go.
Then i could not remember the rest.
Oh man what a weird dream.
I hope i can sleep peacefully tonight.
Also survive every ordeal or obstacles i have to face.
Good night everyone and sweet dreams!