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Its all my fault =(!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009,7:15 PM

I shouldnt have seen the message.
I shouldnt have replied the message.
I shouldnt have said "yes".
Its all my fault all the tension occured.
So i hope all the tension stops.
My cousins are coming over tomorrow,i hope these few days will be a happy and memorable day for them.
I also hope to play a good host.
Maybe its like what they say "i gain i lose".
I had a happy time two days ago winning during the gambling session.
However,things didnt turn out "happy" today.
"Maybe this is why im never happy".
Something may make me feel happy today,but miserable on the next day.
Like what people usually says "One happy the other sad".
I am afriad to lose "something",that is why i am afriad to live life happy everyday.
Ok i seem pestimistic rather than the confident and optimistic germaine says i am.
Germaine i am not as optimistic as i think i am hahas!
I worry every single day.
Like when "the end of the world comes" what should i do?
I dun want to die!!!
I have too many things i havnt accomplish!
But there is saying that if you want to live longer u have to suffer living on earth.
But i do not want to suffer miserably everyday!!!
If i suffer miserably everyday,then what is the point of living?
My cousin just says i look "miserable" today,i think she means i look kind of sad.
OMG such a young kid can tell?
LOL actually i am not sad but just kind of worried.
I worry of a lot of things i just wish i can stop worrying!
Haix sure wish i was younger,the "me" of the past is always so carefree.
Haix but time cant turn back.
Feel better after posting it out.
I shall think about our kbox trip instead!
And my cousin coming over to visit =D!
Must wait for me ok germaine and MY!
And remember dun wear GREEN LOL!

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Which is better

Sunday, January 25, 2009,12:15 AM

Sentosa or go punggol fly kite?

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Beware!

Saturday, January 24, 2009,9:50 PM

Dun come near me i might bite hahas!
I must be seriously bored to be feeling this way.
Stuffing myself at home the whole day is just unbearable.
Anyway i should not feel sad/angry cause chinese new year is coming.
But anyway its going to be boring anyway untill vivian and grace comes to singapore.
Feeling sad cause need to wait till feb then can go kbox and take neoprints.
Haix i shall not dwell on it.
I am going to remember to smile and "greet the elders".
EWW i hate doing that to some of them,i rather dun take the ang baos and dun go bai nian.
I shall not be happy just cause i have free money.
I am going to be independant,its time for me to learn how to provide for myself and i will do just that!
I do not want to rely on anybody except myself even if there is a steady back for me to lean on.
I feel more comfortable and happy by earning things through my own hardwork.
Its time for me to grow and plan for my future.
At least now i have a clear mindset of what i want to pursue.
"Its time for me to turn a deaf ear and follow the path my heart leads."
"Stand my ground and walk alone towards the future ahead of me."

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Grrrrr

9:27 PM

Dun know why but i am so angry!!!
Nowadays i keep moodswinging and hyperactive.
Something`s seriously wrong with me and i think need a psychaitrist.
Or im going to turn into a mental gonecase.
I seriously need something to do like a job!

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I love dun forget the lyrics!

Thursday, January 15, 2009,10:03 PM

I love this song because its very meaningful.

Wonder where i can find the full version without people talking inside it.

Unlike most people who likes the main theme song i like this 插曲 better.

Hahas maybe i really prefer 插曲 then main theme song.

插曲 usually seem more meaningful to me.

And finally the "月娘陈锡" really tells something that is realistic in real life.

Ok my com cant type chinese so i will have to use pinyin.

Although "you qing ren bu neng zhong cheng juan shu" i think that as long as they have each other in their hearts that will be enough.

I think that 月娘 and 陈锡 cant be together is the ideal ending.

Not exactly "ideal" or what i wanted but i think it is "for the best".

I still think the main reason why 月娘 doesnt want to end up with 陈锡 is because of 玉珠.

It isnt her fault that 玉珠 got tortured by robert zhang but if 玉珠 didnt help her and 陈锡 elope that day the one would have been tortured will be 月娘 herself.

Afterall she is robert zhang`s target(that damm basterd!!!).

Even if 月娘 get together with 陈锡 i dun think she will be happy.

She will only keep feeling guilty and only feel worse.

And she spare a thought for him because she doesnt want his family to end up being complicated and unhappy.

Meiyu is also there to ruin their relationship.

However,they are all happy and sucessful in the end even though they didnt end up together.

I feel that as long as they have each other in their hearts it will be enough.

This ending is for the best.

I also think the 3 minutes recap is crap,ruin the entire show arghh!

I hope Little Nyonya fans can accept this ending.

As long as both of them are happy in the end,i think that is what that matters.

And also this song explains it all!

And i also love "dun forget the lyrics" very much!

Hope i can join hahas!

Always will be very high when watching and looking forward to next week`s episode!

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Time to save!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009,11:17 PM

Been spending a lot of money lately.

Its time for me to save up for a laptop when i go to poly i will need it.

Haix if i was lucky i would have won it on the lucky draw during the 2009 countdown party.

Then i can use my salary for other uses.

Every year lose to an auntie,last year won tv this year win laptop.

Well at least i won a thumbdrive.
Sigh.

Going to work harder to earn the money!

Well i hope in the coming year i will be less complacecent and more hardworking.

Also i hope my brain and i grows more mature,i am just too silly and naive.

I hope to think normally,instead of having a very twisted and strange mind.

Sometimes i dun even understand why i think out of the ordinary.

Well afterall i dun think society doesnt accept abnormal thinking people.

I think i will just go with the flow and come back to reality.

Aliens and fairies do not exist in your world liling!

Also i hope not to be such a spentthift.

AND LASTLY STOP THINKING THE WORLD HAD BEEN UNFAIR TO YOU FOR MANY REASONS AND THAT YOU ARE DAMM UNLUCKY!!!

Although i feel that some part of the world have been unfair to me.

ARGHH i am not going to think about it,makes me feel pathetic and upset.

And lastly,dun let ur opportunity slip away from your hands ever again.

This is your last chance.

Treasure it.

The world is realistic one wrong move and there is no u turn back.

So treasure whatever you have

And stay optimistic and cheerful.

Somehow that is what makes one shine.

Oh and i also hope i dun get married before 25 and hope what they say is not true!

HAHAHA!

Without you guys around who will joke,laugh,play,talk,crap,shout,scream with me =(.

Once again loneliness engulf me.

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Let fate decide

10:16 PM

Which poly am i fated to go into
Temasek,Ngee Ann,Singapore,Nanyang or Republic?

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I love prince!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009,8:35 PM

Very random post.

Saw the magazine and lollipop and wanted it very much.

But its so ex =(.

PRINCE *_*

OMG and there`s sasuke too!

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Off day

8:09 PM

Didnt went to work today.

Went to vivo and meet vivian and gang then went to Clarke Quay to meet sheryl and germaine.

Love the view of the Singapore River.

Ahh i cant change the password of the diary!

Must keep the diary away from u two =x.

Our hair was damm messy due to the wind.

Haix i will miss you guys so much when we are seperated =(.

Hope we get into the same poly and same course.

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Should i be sad or happy?

12:17 PM

Results are out and i dun think i did fantastically.
L1R4=19 Haix and i cant get into a JC.
I dun know why but poly courses dun interest me.
I always think that by going to a JC,the people there will carve a pathway for me to follow.
If i want to become a teacher in future,what poly courses will help me acchieve that?
Almost all teachers graduated from JCs.
Now i hope that i really retain!
But since i can go into poly,i shall register as a private candidate.
Maybe if i get better results next year,i can go to other courses/institution.
Think i shall let myself ponder for awhile and later meet vivian they all at vivo.
I shall remember 12 Jan for life!

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Sighs!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009,6:35 PM

Sigh,sigh,sigh.
Deffinately going out this weekend to relieve stress.
Or else i might go crazy!
Going to call germaine tonight.
Maybe talking to her has a calming effect,makes me feel less stressful.
I miss all those slacking days!

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busy busy busy

Friday, January 02, 2009,6:51 PM

So busy these days cant find the time to blog.
If i do have the time i will blog everything xD.
Well so happy that i finally receive my first pay ^_^.
Although it is very tough for the company at this moment,i hope it can make it through the crisis and HUAT AH!
Hahas anyway wish everyone a smooth journey this 2009 and many years to come.
Im off busying with all my other activities such as playing audition.
Tata~ will be back soon xD.

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