in need

Today went to vivo city with Maisarah and Khairunnisa.
Seemed like this was the first time i went shopping with my classmates =D.
We went to walk around and i saw a windmil that was very special.
Maisarah and Khairunnisa saw it too.
Felt like buying it but i know that my Mum would not like it due to some superstitious stuff so i decided not to buy hahas.
Once again i went crazy over the cute toys at "Xin Tian Di".
I was so happy when i went into the shop and saw the tv playing DBSK VIDEOS!!!
I did not notice it at first but when i saw Jaejoong i immediately went crazy because i know that soon i am going to see Changmin`s face on the video as well =D.
I felt that it was such a coincidence.
I never saw or heard about DBSK untill Weiming showed me the mirotic video on youtube.
Once i know about DBSK,and today seemed to be the first time i went shopping after i knew about DBSK existence and i saw their video in the shop!!!
Maybe they might come to singapore for a concert soon(I HOPE SO!!!).
When i was in the shop,i could not help but kept staring at the screen.
And it seemed like those people working in the shop spotted me!!!
They were like giving me strange glances and made me feel so pai seh =.=.

After that we went to Long John.
I watched khairunnisa eat and she was so cute when she eats.
I like watching people eat =x.
Ok i know i sound sick to like watching people eat.
Thats what my friends used to say =x.
I hope khairunnisa wont feel awkward XD.
It was nice of her to offer us her fries.
Thanks khairunnisa!

After eating we went to Candy Empire.
I used to buy a lot of things there.
Cannot resists the chocolates there but i know the economy is bad and everything so i stopped myself from buying all the stuffs that i wanted to buy.
After Khairunnisa and Maisarah went home,i continued to roam around vivo city.
My friend could not make it to accompany me so i shopped alone.
As i walked,i thought about him again.
I do not know why,maybe its been such a long time since i last saw him.
I thought all the schoolwork and new environment had made me forget about him.
Why is it that whenever i am alone,i think of him among everyone else?
I guess absence really make the heart grows fonder.
I watched a movie starring DBSK yesterday and there was this part about Yunho.
His company made him go for a vacation.
There was this fangirl who wrote a letter to Yunho saying that she is dying and if her letters stopped coming,it means that she is dead.
There was this day when her letters stopped coming and Yunho thought that she was dead and went to pay his respects to her.
When yunho reached the destination,she was still alive though but she actually had an illness and she lied to Yunho so that she can at least see him once before she died.
They spent some days together and there was this day before she died she says "when i die,i want to become a star that shines on the person i love" and "being able to see Yunho,i could die happy now".
The next day was the day she died.
I thought about what that girl had said and felt the same way.
If only i could also spend one day with him,just one day.

On the way to "xin tian di" again,i was deep in thought until this guy beside me said some weird stuffs.
He was talking to his friends and suddenly turned to me and showed me a handsign.
He asked me if i knew what it was(I was already shocked by the way he talked to his friends and i tried to keep a low profile so that he would not notice me but ARGHH!!!) and i shooked my head.
I couldnt catch what he said and when i reflect on what the handsign looked like,it looked like some kind of vulgar language from a foreign country =.=.
I just couldnt resists seeing DBSK and the cute stuffed toys that is why i head to "xin tian di" over and over again XD.
Was looking for their album but couldnt find it,wonder why the shop played DBSK on tv when they were not advertising their product.
Wanted to buy the stuffed toys too but i stopped myself XD.
They were hard to resist.
I was staring at the screen again when i saw that GUY again!!!
He went the other direction just now and i wondered when he came into the shop.
He smiled at me so being polite i smiled back to him.
Maybe unknowingly vivian is spreading her attracting "weirdos" energy to me that is why i met this weirdo today.
Vivian please spread your energy to marcus instead LOL.
Im sure he loves weirdos =D.
I quickly leave the shop after i saw that guy.
Went to the arcade and see nothing interesting except the catching machine but i stopped myself from playing as it is a waste of money.

Went to the pet shop and the cute hamsters never failed to cheer me up.
I wanted one since i was like p3 as many of my friends had them.
However,my mum always refused to let me buy them.
Although now she is more open minded in letting me keep them as im older.
But now i am afraid to keep them due to the maggot phobia.
I am afraid that it would attract maggots into my room.
Imagine them crawling around just make me feel disgusted.
I have to make a choice XD.
But having a pet will make me feel very happy and keeps me occupied.
I love animals a lot.
If i have one at least i have something to keep me company everyday,something to talk to and something to listen to my sorrows.

I know it is impossible between us.
But i could not get myself to forget you.
Tell me what i should do.
I am confused.
Tired.
And lonely.