in need

Must be thinking why i am awake at such a late time right?
Maybe its because my holidays are going to end T.T.
While my friends are just starting,why must rp be so cruel!!!
Played npc with carrotgal just now,won a lot of dens ^_^.
And she is still playing at such a time.
FURTHERMORE,I STILL CANNOT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT LAOER MAKE ME HIS WAITER IN RESTAURANT CITY!!!
HOW COULD YOU!!!
I DEMAND YOU TO SACK ME RIGHT AWAY!!!
ARGHH AND U STILL CHOOSE AN AH MA CHARACTER FOR ME!!!
LOL and i am still listening to 5566 songs at such a time XD.
*Yawns* i think i should go to sleep soon.
Although i am tired but i cant get to sleep.
I will just end up rolling in bed and thinking of many things,my future,my life and that person XD.
I wish i could let go.
But somehow i am still lingering on the memories XD.
It is impossible as our distances are just too far apart.
There are two choices i have to make.
One is the courage to go forward.
Another is wait for the chance a.k.a the coincedence that i will meet him again.
HAIX it is like waiting for money to fall from the sky!!!
AND I DUN HAVE ENOUGH COURAGE!!!
But things are better now as i am psychoing myself to get over him.
I would like to also thank my friends for their support,i am just not brave enough and chooses to escape from the fact that i like him and want to know more about him =x.
I am going to keep my heart locked up from now.
You will be left as an important memory.
I guess you will be something i will never be able to get hold of.
Feels like i have no courage left within me.
Seems like there is a part of me that fears rejection.
I do not want you to avoid me or find me annoying.
Till the day i regain my courage,which will make me stronger.
And that is when i will bravely face you,along with these feelings kept deep within my heart.
Wish that i am the hands molding you.
I am there to know what happens around you.
Watching over you.
I really hope that one day you will notice my existence XD.