in need

Wow it seems like a long time since i blog.
But i blog for a reason this time.
My life in rp was great,my classmates were nice and friendly people,rp has a nice environment,nice food etc.
Since everything seem to be so nice,i keep wondering to myself,why am i not happy?
It is like everytime before i go to bed i keep thinking,whether spending time in rp would be a waste and whether i will be a failure once again.
I know i do not want to be a failure EVER AGAIN!
Going to rp really make me feel like a BIG FAT FAILURE!!!
In class,i may be happily chatting with my classmates but i know deep down rp is not the place i want to be,whether how nice environment is,or how nice and friendly my classmates are or how delicious the food may be.
I never knew i could feel this way,although i am quite sad but i am enduring it.
Maybe because of that little "hope" i still have in it.
Another reason i am sad of coming here is because of "that person".
Before i ever get a chance to tell "that person",i feel that i am drifting further and further away.
I do not know why it could make me feel so sad,but haix XD
I hope no one asks me who "that person" is,and for those who know,you know hahas.
And please dun let the cat out of the bag hahas.
I have trust and faith in the people who know hahas!
I miss north vista because of hei family.
When can i ever see you guys again!!!T.T
And ger i wonder how your life is now,its been a long time since i called you.
Hope you have time to spare for chatting =x.
I am starting to miss the past now that everything is so new and unfamiliar.
I really miss you guys even though the life in rp is great T.T.
PLEASE SPARE SOME TIME TO MEET UP!!!LOLS XD
Hei Family Truly,
Leona aka Vin hei the rich =x