It was the worst day of my life.
But after playing basketball with vivian,ram,huishan and other friends,i felt much much better.
Sometimes i wonder,what the heck is wrong?
Even after everything,can`t we still be friends?
I did not want to send that message,i hesitate a lot before i did.
I remember last time i told you i was OK,but actually i am not but i did not want you to feel guity or anything.
All the while i have been sparing a thought for your feelings but what about you?
All you have ever done is to hurt me,make me so so confused and unhappy.
Till now,i realised i was not even a friend to you,maybe even less than a stranger.
Nevermind,i have tried my best,i will not ponder about it anymore.
The basketball game was fun.I scored about 3 throws?Maybe more?
Hahas.I remember accidentally hitting and stepping on people`s foot.
Sorry it was not on purpose.
The court was too overcrowded =x.
I tried so hard to avoid getting hit by the ball.There was once the ball bounce over and i run and douge quickly.
I was VERY cautious of the ball.
BUT THEN I STILL GOT HIT.
I was grabbing the ball and vivian came over to snatch it and the ball hit my face T_T.But it`s ok,at least i got the ball in my hands =x.
Huishan did not play no matter how much i persuade and asked her too.
So while they are still playing,i kept her company for a awhile then we went home.
22 July
School was ok even though it is BIOCHEM today.
I hate BIOCHEM.
Met vivian for break today blah blah blah.
Then went home with huishan and nico.
Before that,we waited for nico.
While waiting,out of a sudden,did not know why but we started talking about how our parents met each other and got married etc.
It was funny yet frustrating.
About marriage....
We have the same mindset.
Before marriage,everything was sweet.
And after marriage, even though it is just a little misunderstanding, the drama occurs and the word DIVORSE started to appear too often.
But why even get married when you are thinking of divorse?
Because of what?
Because of loneliness?
Because of wanting to show off?
Because of just wanting a family or child and so just find anyone to settle down?
Because of money?
Because of wanting to wear a wedding dress?
I don`t understand.
I really don`t.
This is what i have seen these days when people get married out of recklessness and when people get into a relationship.
Maybe i do not understand because i am not a person who fall in love very easily.
Maybe i do not understand because i am not a person who fall in love very easily.
But when i do,even though i am not together with that person.
I will remember this love for life.
It is really kind of sad huh?
Even though people say nothing lasts forever,nothing is absolute.
People change.
Maybe it is in my personality,i don`t know.
Now there is like less than 50% of my love left.
All i know is i cannot love like before.
I just let my heart fall.
Devoted.
I always believe in making the first move.
Because i did not want to regret.
Because i know WHAT I WANT.
But sadly,WHAT YOU WANT always leave you when you WANT THEM.
Therefore, now there is nothing I WANT ANYMORE.
I will give my love to whoever cares for me most,like my friends and family.
And not to the person i love and care most who does not appreciate.
It is only fair and i won`t get hurt too much.
This is what i have learnt from the philosophy of what we have chatted that day.
Pictures:
Got more but lazy to post.
Watch u-kiss vampire episode yesterday (Y).
It was about blood type personality.
From what i have observed,B blood types really annoys me.
They are sarcastic and nonchalent.
What i cannot stand most is their sarcasm and they expect people to care about their feelings when they are actually nonchalent about others.
Nonchalent - Do not care.
Even though AB are similiar too but at least they are more honest with their words.
They may be harsh but at least less fake then B blood types because they do not use sacarsm you see.
Why i say that is because some people who do not understand the art of sacarsm really suffers under their hands.
Well of course O blood type is the best ya...
Because we are purest hahas!
And we are fun to be with - when we want to and gets hyper.
We get along well with almost everyone.
AND WE ARE THE MOST GENEROUS!!!
I share the same blood type as alexdander,kibum,eli and KEVIN =D.
But it is common anyway LOL.
But i like A blood types better.
Because they are understanding and organised.
They think and care about others before themselves.
That is what i admire about them ya...
What they should try to control is their constant worrying.
LOL hahas.