~Memories~

Sunny day

2011-06-07T16:35:00.002+08:00

Yo~Took like a few days ago with crazy hair.

Oh my goodness, oh my soul!Went to rivervale mall just now and bought this?Cute much?

Went to rivervale mall alone because i cannot stand sitting or SLEEPING my whole day at home at home any longer >:(.I want to declare something!I am sick and tired of my freedom already.I had enough of loneliness.See just like this special white pigeon, seriously don`t look like a pigeon to me loh.More like those crane but i saw it together with some other pigeons.You understand my loneliness right little one, don`t you?:(.

While at least in reality, little white-like-crane pigeon here is not alone.NOT ALONE!Ok not trying to cue PJM songs here hahaha lol =x.

Ok grouchy me -unedited pic- because my maid just attitude me for nothing =.=".I just eat ice cream and watch tv nia loh.BOF on KBS just nice when i on it hehehe :D.

Ok that is all for today.
Malaysia here i come yay.
Bye and cya all :D.

I should not cry but i should be happy.

2011-05-24T00:52:00.001+08:00

I wonder why.
Why do i have to go through this.
I don`t blame you.
I blame myself for putting myself through this.
Maybe i should not be so honest from the start.
It makes it awkward for us now, maybe what i have said startled you and it might seemed fake thus making me not knowing how to face you.
But what i have said are all my honest feelings.
I know i don`t know you well, but i just don`t understand why either.
At first i thought it`s the feeling of loneliness that leads to feeling this way, but no, that`s not it.
Now i realised.
My feelings are along are so true and sincere.
If only i listened to my heart at that time.
I tried.
Even though not at my best, because i was not given the chance.
Or maybe i did not treasure the chance.
Because i want to be sure, before i even make a move, i want something i put all of my heart and soul into to last at least.
Therefore, i was afraid to show you the real me, thinking that you might dislike me for my real personality.
This only happens with you, i have no problem being myself with others.
Last time i even thought of making myself depressed all the time as a little sacrifice to make you love me or maybe my sadness could make you happier and luckier.
I realised, that was quite a stupid thing to do.
If we are really meant to be, we will be together by now.
But i guess i should be happy for you, at least you find someone you love now, someone that makes you happy.
If i said i moved on, i`ll be lying.
Because this memories, be it happy or sad will always remain in my heart.
Even though if i had the chance, i would not fall in love with you like this, because this feelings are too real to be true.
Maybe i will be better off without these feelings.
I blame myself for falling for something i cannot keep.
Makes me feel very insecure now.
Makes me feel bad of rejecting other guys either, might be adding up to the bad karma.
Maybe i should start giving myself a chance to start anew, as well as giving others a chance too, i wonder if i can really do it.

Is it just me who is missing you?
Statying up through the tiresome night thinking of you.
Try as i would to hate you more, i yearned for you once again.
Is it just me who shed tears and felt hurt?
While yearning for your love like this?

If today is the end of the world...

2011-05-22T02:39:00.000+08:00

I want the special person to stay with me be it the good or bad times, whether it is the end of the world or not, can my simple wish be granted?

Is it just me only?

2011-05-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

A message...

Where are you?
I am still searching for you.
If it is possible to turn back time, perhaps i would not love you like this.
Am i not in your memories?
Am i not someone in your heart?
Is it just me again?
Did you not love me even once?
Is it just me who misses you this much?
With little memories like this.
Is it just me who is still unable to cast this aside?
Still i hope for you to come into my heart.
Was i in this alone?

So do you know about this?
I wonder.
Because i know my heart don`t lie.

Outing

2011-05-17T02:33:00.000+08:00

Might be going out tomorrow with huishan and friends.
Why do i hear birds singing at such an hour?
Lastly, i apologize to my papa and mama, sorry.

Why???

2011-05-16T20:50:00.001+08:00

Why???
What happened???
What is it that i don`t understand???
Where did it go wrong???
I don`t understand???

Boo

2011-05-16T00:15:00.004+08:00

BOO!!!

Ok random post.

Good night.

I am starting to love grapes or fruits.

LALALA~

Ok i am a little crazy, pissed, sad, angry, emotional today *sighs*........

Inspiration

2011-05-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

Lately i have been doing much self-thinking.

I have been doing it like most of the time but i don`t blog it out or i don`t say it out.

Well, for today i want to share my thoughts as well as awareness to the world.

I know most people say that i look childish, irresponsible(yes i don`t deny that), innocent, stubborn and naive.

But then, i may look childish and young-looking but actually a really old matured soul lives inside this child-like face.

What has been on my mind this few days are things like "how to make this world a better place".
I know i am not in the position and neither am i capable of doing so because my soul isn`t exactly free.

"Free" meaning no restriction, no desires as i do have some "grudges" lingering inside of me.

I feel that everybody has it, unless the person learns and comprehends the word "forgiveness".

Lastly, i find myself happier because i am seeing the "hey, it isn`t that hard to forgive and free your mind of negative thoughts and trust issues".

However, i am not 100% free of it though.

I still find it hard to trust people.

When i give in total trust in a person, the person ALWAYS disappoints me.

However, if there if i linger a certain doubt about a situation, things turn out just fine.

How ironic.

That is why i kind of cultivate the master of "self-thinking".

I called it self-thinking and not self-meditation because eh it doesn`t do much help relieving LOL.

But it helps me in understanding certain stuffs and situations.

Ok i suggest you don`t try it unless your heart and mind is strong enough.

It is hard to control negative thoughts from overpowering you and might cause some self-damage.(I read from websites that negative thinking can lead to alcohol, drugs etc.).

Maybe usually my thoughts aren`t negative, neither is it positive either but more a philosophical kind of view.

Whereas people usually think about themselves OR others other than themselves.

Well, for me is i do think about my OWN welfare like a lot >.< and also the world at large.

That is why i tend to neglect my friends and family welfare sometimes from their reaction >.<.

Basically i don`t tend to think of them as i don`t see them like in need of something eg. help or attention.

Unless they come to speak to me about it or else how will i know?

LOL =x.
After said all this well my conclusion is, i really want to do something for the less fortunate society but i don`t know how to.

As i have seen like many of those corupted people who takes advantage of situations like donations when they pocketted the money themselves >:(!

That is why i aspire to become a good pharmacist to help people in their health(Physical) but (i know i am not really cut out for it >.<) and also an entertainer to entertain people to keep them happy and free of stress(Psychologically).

But first, i must be strong enough to be capable to do such things.

I may not have experienced much pain in my life(does not mean i don`t have painful/sad moments) but i manage to overcome them.

In my opinion, everyone has a right to be happy and loved.

That is because i have been loved and blessed, by my friends and my family, i learnt to be contented with what i have rather than complaining about what i lack(It is hard i know).

Well how do i know if i have achieve it?

Well, it is because i am a much happier person now, not really that happy as in HAPPY in caps but more of um FREEDOM.

I have a greater understanding of what i want, what i desire and what i have to gain greater awareness.

To channel all the negative to constructive learning, insight and experience.

I also find it hard to bear grudges though, it is really tiring but sometimes you cannot help to.

So lastly, happiness is not a destination.

It is a method of life.

True self

2011-04-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

Omg i just love this photo.
Did not know i have a natural ability to pout so well.
Ok my face looks kind of fat so it`s like some maplestory pig face LOL.
So do i look cute?
I know you want me *acts sexy* Hahaha jkjk i feel so disgusted myself.
I think i am better off acting pure and innocent.
It is my natural ability since i am like an *angel* hahas.
Hey because i am such a good girl that is why i got my angel vibe ^_^.

Hello guys i am back to blog blog~

:).

Ok today will be a more lighthearted yet "give a more deeper thought" post.

Well, recently have been hearing my mum saying "ahh, the young li ling and now is so totally different".

"Different?" This is what comes into my mind.

Therefore, i will keep questioning my mum about this.

Well, she is always saying "ahh little li ling is such a chatterbox(ji zha po in chinese) and she can never stop TALKING, unlike now(LOL >.<)".

Sometimes i will ask myself this too.

Why am i so different in the past and now?

Whenever i hear my mum say this, i will ask her what i am like when i am young(actually part of my past i cannot remember *i think i knock my head too many times LOL*) like a description.

Then she will happily go ahead and say like the incident that happened today.

"Oh, you ah, when you were young, very cute de loh, talk non stop, that`s why your grandma and your aunt dotes on you so much." she said.

Then i asked "Then my bro leh?He not like this meh?"

She replied "No lah, he zi bi(retardation or those mute kind of kid) one.

I thought i was just like the other kids when they were young loh.

But my mum said i am different, i am different from my cousins too(they were more quiet types).

Even my younger cousin got once told me about this, then she still say her dad which is my uncle got took video of how we were like when we were young(when i heard what she said i was like embarassed max).

My mum still told me some funny stories.

She said there was once chinese new year, i will see the oranges very nice and then secretly put it in my pocket one by one LOL.

She said i still thought nobody knows when my uncle, aunt and my mum was watching me wondering why i am like that.

Then it got me wondering "why i make myself like a theif?There sure got oranges to eat de ma."

Then my mum said i used to like to play pranks and once tried to make her trip LOL.

The most funny part is when my mum said when i am bathing, i will order my elder cousin to get those bathroom toys like those rubber duckie kind and also towel etc.

Then i will spend my time placing all the items nicely in the bathtub floating.

My mum was like saying why couldn`t i get those items prepared before going to bath and it is ALWAYS i got my cousin to get them for me like queen like that.

Now i think back i feel bad.

She always said i am daring, dare to go to a stranger naked bangla house to ask him for help to help my grandma open the door and even dare borrow money from teacher LOL.

Aiya still got more lah.

So embarrassed man.

But the way my mum described it is like damm funny to me because i am way different from back then.

I wonder why i was so weird yet hyper yet daring too =\.

Come to think of it, those traits still exists but i don`t show out.

Everytime i am with someone, i will tend to want to play pranks on them or want to make them embarrassed and i an chio within.

Now i am less talkative as i am afraid that once i start talking, i won`t stop.

But however, most importantly why i changed is i am afraid of gossips, like people judging you and giving negative comments about you etc.

I remembered being criticized for being over-talkative.

Yeah, my mum, relatives and bestfriends do love me for being hyperactive, talkative as they love me for who i am, but sometimes i really do not like all these "comments".

Even though i seem to not care, but sometimes i just cannot help thinking about it.

Sometimes i do care about how people think of me.

In the past, i don`t and never did but maybe because now i am more insecure than before.

Maybe that is why i will feel this way.

However, these won`t affect me for long.

Worst things have happened to me so this is just small case, i can get over it.

I wonder why i am a pieces, shouldn`t pieces be the quiet type?(my friends are like this).

I wonder where i got my thick skin from hahas.

Seriously i do kind of dislike my thick skinness.

It does hurt me sometimes due to some things that happened.

Hey, but i do believe in being honest and sincere.

So if i say anything harsh to you, i am definately not against you, but i speak nothing but the truth.

That is why the truth hurts sometimes, but i prefer hearing the truth.

After this incident.

I realised it is not i wanted to be a more positive and optimistic person.

The reality is i already am.

Just that i did not realised and that is what is bothering me.

What is bothering me is my optimistism that gave negative impact on me.

So is that why i tried to be a negative person to have another aspect point of view?

The questions marks remained in my head.

I wonder what hurts the most?

Is it love?

Lack of attention?

Friendship?

Trust?

Fear of being outcasted or disliked?

All stems from the word L.O.V.E and R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P with people no matter how i look at it.

On a happy note or stress note, i still have school and fyp tomorrow nights.

Thanks issac, hui shan, xue li and rowena for being such good team members.

I did not do much and i am still kind of confused about certain stuffs but i will try my best to work harder.

No slacking off!

I must get this into my head.

*Chants* hahas.

0330

2011-03-30T22:28:00.003+08:00

0330 Yes it is today march 30! Up till today, many things have happened these few weeks. That i have learnt to cherish and treasure. I realised that i have many things i have not done too. Time is short. Instead of complaining and procrastinating all the time, i am going to make good use of my time to do what i have always wanted to do. Now, all you are going to see is a more progressive me. Well, may my decision be good or bad, i am going to give it a shot. Also, i am not going to be upset of things that turned out to be beyond my control anymore. Lastly, i cut my hair hahaha! Random but i think it is nice and looks neater. Sometimes there are things i cannot not accept. It turned out making me really unhappy and discontented. However, now that i learnt that life goes on, whether i like it or not. That somethings are against my will no matter how hard i try. Instead of going on with all the comparison, i should be happy with what i have now.

2011-02-16T19:33:00.001+08:00

I’d like for her to have an outgoing personality, and she’s someone who smiles often. My ideal woman is someone who can understand my feelings and accepts me for who I am.” - Kevin Woo

Aww i am looking for someone like that too.

For me, if you are a devoted, faithful and considerate lover, you are welcome to audition =x.

Yes faithfulness is very important factor that i am looking for a partner because i used to be a very devoted lover(devoted to a sense of stupidity(ya i find myself stupid) in the past.

But now i open myself to the bigger horizens, well afterall they are many fishes out there.

Even though there are many fishes around, but it hard to find the "one who fits the bill".

Why is faithfulness so important to me you ask?

What is the point of having a relationship if both just wants to play?

It will lead to nowhere.

If that is the case, i rather both be friends.

But, it depends, depends hmm...

Because afterall love is unpredictable, it is beyond our control.

So ya i shall not be skeptical :).

Just now watching pops in seoul, got me thinking.

They talked about "weakness in personality"

When i thought about mine, i think it would be stubborness, too freedom-oriented, democratic, irritating(that is when i am young), too slow in realising something, irresponsible and naive.

Kevin says his personality weakness is that he is too "weak".

He is the type that is accomodating to people even though he may not want to.

Aww >.<.

But to me, he is a good guy because this shows that he is considerate towards people.

How many people can actually do that?

There is a saying that people are selfish =\, it`s inborn.

Then he says "i gotta act more manly" - yes you should.

LOL.

Sometimes, you are way too gentle, it`s scary.

Ok i hope and anticipate to see more interesting new music from you.*Grins* :D!

But still i like you just the way you are my idol~

I saw this on twitter "If a girl admits that she likes you, know that it took her every ounce of courage she has. Don't take her for granted."

I hope i am not the same old guillable me anymore.

Yeah, not for someone who doesn`t appreciate it.

It still bothers me untill now but i can only blame myself for my own stupidity for being naive when you don`t even give a damm.

Even though i still care for you now.

But you have lost my love for you, it`s gone now.

Before the lunar rabbit new year comes...

2011-02-02T02:01:00.000+08:00

Hello!
I am back blogging as i have many to blog.
Today went to Orchard with Hui shan and Winnie.
Went to look around for new year clothes.
So qiao Hui shan saw Ken and his friend alighting at Orchard too.
This is second time liao hahas.
I got pictures but i can`t post now.(In my handphone and i am too tired to connect).
I think i found the song i was looking for in the radio "Gu dan xin shi".
Nice song (Y).
Makes me feel like going to kbox again hahas.
Who wants to go with me *waves hand*.

I realised that i smile more and laugh more.
However, i don`t think i am any happier.
But i will improve right?

Orchard!!!

2011-01-27T00:40:00.003+08:00

This few days have been going for CE talks or walking around window shopping.

Today went orchard with huishan.

Met shiting by coincidence and we keep laughing due to the "middle finger joke".

Dunno is it i suay or what shoes halfway spoil while walking =.=" and having stomachache at the same time.

Huishan wanted to go to robinsons to look for her friend jasper and maybe see if they are any job vacancies available.

We went to every floor except the fifth floor because she said the fifth floor was like the least likely place jasper will be under that department but who knows when she reach home,she told me jasper was there at the FIFTH FLOOR LOL.

Today i made a new discovery!

Ion`s toilet is really like NICE.

Got apple scent some more.

HAHAHA sua gu i know.

I don`t mind living there.*kidding*

Ok i guess that is all.

Goodnight ^_^!!!

I guess it is not i don`t feel pain.

It is not that i am too stubborn to cry.

It is that the pain is suppressed for too long that even i don`t know how to release it.

I wonder how long i can take it?

I don`t understand, i really don`t, this feeling being suppressed so deep within the soul.

Bad mood day

2011-01-25T00:15:00.005+08:00

I may be smiling now but let me tell you today my mood was damm bad.

Even though it may be a joke.

But i cannot stand it anymore.

Please don`t associate me with some unknown person which i have never even know or spoken to.

It is annoying.

I BUCKING dislike it man.

I don`t like these false scandals/rumours going around.

Want associate also associate with someone i know or am closer to right?-.-".

Other people might think that i am flirt or something but i am not.

Don`t test my patience.

"They say love is blind."

"I say it only see what matters." - Quoted by a tv commercial.

The meaning of life or is it?

2011-01-21T02:32:00.006+08:00

I am sure my face is gonna get slimmer and slimmer i swear (._.)/o.
Recently i watched a Hongkong drama.
Hahas back to the HK drama days.
HK dramas are nice ok.
Even better than those taiwan ones.
I used to like those "idol dramas" lah,but then too unrealistic and the story plot like always the same so now when i see those dramas i will be like "arghh can totally predict the endings ._.".
This drama that i am watching now is called "The ghost writer" or in chinese 蒲松齡.
Even though i have the tendancy to watch like part by part and now the full show.
I find this show nicer than the raymond lam and tavia yeung the "Kingsley" one.
These two are the SCV most recent drama.
This show haven`t reached the ending yet but i heard a rumour about the ending and it is a very unexpected and sort of twisted one.
First an introduction to the drama...
PO CHUNG-LING (Steven Ma) was born in Jinan a family of New Year print.
He is very bright, his father, PO POON (Yueh Hua), has therefore always hoped that he could one day carry on the family business.
LING, mistakenly thinks that POON is working in collusion with some corrupt officials, refuses to listen to what his father says.
His good friend, KO JIT (Chan Kam Hung), is a constable and he hates corrupt officials as much as LING does.
Rumor has it that a fox spirit is creating troubles in Jinan.
LING is almost killed when he is investigating into the matter with JIT.
Fortunately, a mysterious girl named LING WU SIU-TSUI (Fala Chen) comes to his rescue in the nick of time.
It turns out later that she is the fox spirit, and that she saves LING so as to return a past favor. As they spend more and more time together, TSUI starts to fall for LING.
The PO family has secured a large order of New Year print.
To ensure the work can be finished in time they have to hire a large numbers of female workers. LAU SUM-YU (Linda Chung woots ^_^ sorry ger =x) applies for the job, but her real intention is to look for the man who was unfaithful to her sister, never knowing that she would later be caught in a love triangle with LING and JIT.

Ok well another one of my liking for folktales stories this drama is portrayed for.
I like Linda to act more of such dramas^_^.
I don`t like her modern dramas.
Well basically the story focuses more on how TSUI and JIT became evil because of love and revenge.
Actually i never expected that TSUI will fall for LING.
The last part of the show which i watched for Yu was supposed to marry JIT even though the person that she likes is LING.
She couldn`t do anything but to resign to her fate because LING owe JIT a debt.
It was when the corrupt officers wanted to inprison and kill LING but JIT saved him despite being a officer himself.
JIT got into trouble with one of the corrupt officers and was tortured in jail.
He also become evil afterwards.
I haven`t watched the whole show so i don`t know what will happens next.
But i heard a rumour that at the ending of the drama is YU(linda died and cannot be reincarnated and stayed in the human world as a spirit), LING lived alone and became old,died etc(I think he did become an officer at first but switched to become a writer), never heard anything about JIT but i guess he commited suicide or something(that is like what usually happen to good people who became bad?) and TSUI practiced and eventually became an immortal or something.
Well this seems to be a sad ending because ALL OF THEM WERE SEPERATED.
But in the beginning song of the video i saw a part where LING is writing,YU was beside him with a different hairstyle and TSUI(in fox form).
So i think YU maybe stayed with him as a spirit but he can see her(maybe due to having power since he once drank TSUI blood thus having some immortal abilities).
Even though this story seems like under the "fictional catergory" but i find it realistic in a sense on the message the story is trying to convey.
LING`s father wants him to become an good officer as to be of good service to mankind but then why did he quit being one in the end(i assume that he quitted due to the title of the drama "the ghost writer").
However, LING alone could change much of anything.
What i meant is in reality,as long as you have really tried hard and did your best,it is good enough.
Even up to today and now,there are still many "evil" people around despite the education about morals and principles being taught in school.
Why?
It all boils down to this 3 things,MONEY,LOVE and POWER.
These three shows the best and worst of humanity and it is what contributes to a "good" or "evil" person.
Well,i wouldn`t say that there is a purely "good" or "evil" person as everyone has their own good/bad characteristics.
What i mean is "people may change" for example: a "good" person may become "evil" while a "evil" person can become "good" as well.
Also,i heard from a show that in this world is about balance.
It uses this metaphor as an example "Fish cannot survive in pure water and neither can it survive in polluted water."
So it is this balance that makes the world unfair.
This drama also portrays the good and downside of mankind.
So yeah~I shall continue watching to understand this complicated yet twisted story.
This is the beginning song/video of the drama enjoy hehes :D.(Eh but blogger don`t allow me to post it :( damm.)

Oh today me and my twin wore the similiar checkered shirt and got into the same group LOL(She said that she counted 20 people wearing checkered shirt today.)

In order to be happy and contented,does it mean that i have to accept that there is no gurantee of happy ever after in every story?

Now i learnt that matters most are the memories whether it may be good or bad,it is part of my memory.

How can i

2011-01-15T12:46:00.019+08:00

How can i?

Something i frequently ponder about.

But first i shall blog about what happen yesterday.

After school, went with huishan to pasar malam after eating and chatting at Mac.

First time i see someone laugh till cry sia!!!

Even though it`s not me that make her like this =x.

It is someone who eat burger with maiyonese stuck on his mouth and walking around without knowing it.

LOL ok then we went pasar malam to walk.

I bought two clothes and she bought one.

She bought one same shirt but different colour hahas ^_^!

It was a good day till i reached home and found out something.

First i was quite pissed off but i realised next time i have to be more careful of my surrondings next time.

Beware of rumours and people who likes to twist the facts.

Sometimes, it hurts me to see the path you are taking, good friend.

But as a friend, i respect your decision and will give you support.Yeah?

It`s a crisis.

What should i do and is there anything i can do?

I miss the days at Lagunita...

Hello!

2011-01-14T02:47:00.001+08:00

HEY HEY!!!
Aww do you know who this girl is?
She is my favourite character from the game "threads of fate"
I still remember the times i used to play this playstation game.
Love it.
LOL.
Her name is Mint and little Mint here hates pumpkins(me too LOL!)

Hmm today i am going to do a little post about me.
Because these few days i have been searching on the net about astrology.
Don`t know why i am so interested in it =\.
Maybe because i want to be able to understand people better.
Every person is different in their own way,sometimes so different i find it hard to understand.
We are all human but why are our personalities so different?
Have anybody ever wondered why?
My classmates seem to be engrossed too when i talk about it.
The astrology that i am talking about doesn`t mean your sun sign only.
It includes the full natal chart and the other planets that influence your personality.
Basically i learnt that just by looking at the sun sign won`t tell much.
It is too generalised and not very accurate LOL.

Ok about me...

1. I am weird.As in i like the weird things that usually people will not be interested about?Aliens,UFO,Magic,spirits,faries etc.Anything extraordinary.

2. I find people do not understand me.Well not surprising because i don`t understand myself much either.But i live with it.

3. I am quite erm democratic?I can accept other`s views/opinions/comments readily and i am not the type that will change other views.But hate it when people try to enforce theirs on me(EXTRMELY DISLIKE).

4. People say i am stubborn.Hmm...i guess i am a little.LOL usually the advice my friends gave me don`t go into my head.One ear in and one ear out.Especially when i am determined on doing something,nothing can change my mind.

5. I am unrealistic in terms of money.I see that around me everyone seem to be obsessed/worried and wanting to earn more money.My meaning of "unrealistic" may be i don`t really value money.Money isn`t the most important to me.Goals/dreams/purpose/ambition/having to find a meaning in life are.

6. I don`t have much likes or dislikes.I like to remain neutral.LOL.

7. Sense of freedom is quite high or what to not.Don`t like to be told what to do.Don`t like to be restricted either.

8. I think i am quite polite.Because i don`t like people who are rude.I practice good manners :D.

9.I am lazy and i don`t like that :(.

10. Growing up feeling different and very much isolated even though i may have many friends in the past.

11. Sometimes my friends call me a confident person.Actually not really.

12. Childish.Hahas used to.But i still collect stuffed toys but i won`t let anybody know =x.

13. I do have an ego/pride.

14. I am quite generous :D.But selfish too in some ways.I always share my food.

15. Moral values are important to me.Sense of justice is quite strong too.I cannot stand biasness or unfairness.

16. I love peace.But i have the tendancy to create chaos when provoked.Don`t try to mess with me >:(.

17. I like to be with people who share the same thoughts/values with me.I find it is easier to communicate with such people hahas.

18. Animals are my best friends.Innocent and pure like me =x.Jkjk.Humans are sometimes to complicated to my liking.I prefer being with animals.

19. Lastly, i like eating,sleeping ,exploring new and interesting things,learning(not studying),spicy/sweet stuffs,amusement parks,zoos,stuff toys,photography,music,stylish clothing and kungfu LOL.

Wouldn`t it be nice for me to go to Lotte world someday?
After watching "we are dating" of Xander and Minah.
Makes me want to make a dating list too of the fun things couples do when dating.
I want to try skiing LOL.
Go Lotte world.
Go to those places where you can see the stars using the stetoscope?I dunno how to spell LOL.
Go Marina bay sands the skypark!
So many many more LOL but it`s time for me to sleep.Good night y~all.I am going back to my castle now.My horsecart is waiting for me.My pony is getting impatient hahas.

I wish

2011-01-13T01:45:00.001+08:00

I wish i am more smitten by you...

Oh this is the long due pic and the only poleroid picture i have of kevin woo my idol(nice right?).

Ok i am not obsessed with him ok?

Even though he have the ability to make many girls hearts flutter.

Who will not love him?

It is like the humblest,talented and polite idol i have seen.*aww feel like pinching your cheeks*

Ok so back to my story...

I drew a picture today....

Not yet enough to create a story though...

There is another picture i draw...but too ugly so didn`t post LOL.

But i guess my heart still belongs to you...So why didn`t it change?

Look at little monster inc sulley trying to act fierce LOL.

This picture is so nice...The colours...:).

When people from two different worlds meet.This pictures tells a lot.What can you infer from this picture?Hahas.:).

The story of the parakeet

2011-01-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!

Let me share with you a story for today...

Hello everyone.

I am parakeet.

I have a dream or perhaps many dreams.

Dreams as in a goal.

Something that i want to fufill/achieve in life.

But hmm...as you can see...i am so small sometimes even insignificant...

Well for me, my dream is to become a pheonix and eat as many variety of seeds buffet as possible.Chirp ~ ^_^.

My hobby is singing and exploring new places.

During my journey,i met many friends such as mouse,kitty,pigrabbit,tortoise,wild boar etc etc as well as enemies.

Say hi to my good friend mouse.

I prefer calling it rat though hahaha ^_^.

We both love to eat seeds and spend much time together.

However my friend here is not very happy :(.

Maybe due to the dark times it had in the rubbish dump.

But this mouse here is a kindhearted soul, but sadly it met many unwanted company that causes it sometimes to be a unhappy mouse.

Mouse and i are kind of the same, in some way.

Parakeet and mouse met by coincidence on a green field along with the other animals.

Both came here for the seeds buffet LOL :D.

There is a legend that by eating the seeds buffet,it has the ability to help you fufill one wish.

It has also the ability of overcoming the impossible.

That is the reason why Parakeet came here from afar.
However, mouse had no wish and there is a side effect of eating seed buffet but having no results achieve.
Mouse was vexed but hoping it could find the answer by attending this buffet.

However, the buffet is only for those who knew what they want.

Well, Parakeet is not completely free of problems.

The outcome of this buffet is that it can only fufill only one wish.

But the problem with Parakeet is it doesn`t know which to choose among it`s many wishes.

One has no wish while the other has too many.

What to do?

~To be continued~

The soil which parakeet once thought would find some treasure(seeds) in it.

The woods that once made parakeet feel that it`s not alone.

And the merman???

ARGHH!!!

2011-01-09T01:32:00.002+08:00

NO WAY!!!!!!!!!

I think i lost the most important(meaningful) thing to me.
It is like my lucky aka happiness charm.
So now how is the prince going to find the princess?
I don`t remember bringing it out.
I don`t remember showing it to other people other than huishan.
And i will never give anybody at this point of moment.
So where are you?
Princess charm where are you?
Prince charm is npt complete without you.
So please come back :(.
I am going to turn my bedroom upside down tomorrow.
Going to annoy my maid to the extreme.
AISHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to get some beancurd from the frige now.
No more strawberries :(.
Hope there is some ice cream too.
Char ja yoh~

These things...

2011-01-08T01:30:00.005+08:00

These i get from tumbler and some from vivian`s tumbler as well...

All that describes my life perfectly...

To a certain someone...Don`t make me say things i don`t want to say -.-"...That will lead me in saying some nasty stuffs...Hope you understand...Thinking about it just makes my blood boil (-_-)".

Yeah.Not easy i know :(.

Like in a neverending maze @_@.

Yes i do.

Dunno why i keep *cough cough cough* at night.

Seems like everybody is getting sick now.

Take care everyone.

OMG!!!U-kiss coming to sg again this June?WOW great.But i am going to be broke again.Shall save.I heard that they will be going to Malaysia too?WOW even more great :D.I am most most extremly happy that SG is like their first stop?Hahas :)).

The 2nd day of school

2011-01-05T01:31:00.003+08:00

Say HELLO to mr kiwi!!!

Thinking of New zealand just makes me so PISSED but i love mr kiwi LOL.(It is my bro`s actually and he is very protective of it.Don`t even let me touch so i have to do so secretly.)

Today was a so-so day.

Nothing special.

But there was this module talk,we wanted to go at first but decided not to because Jennifer said it was a waste of time.

The module will be preselected for us anymore.

Then meanwhile while the class either went for break of the talk,there were only four people in class.

Elaine,Jennifer,Huishan and i.

So we chatted.

It was a very long chat and it was such a coincidence that we have connections.

I cannot reveal what we said there as it may affect many people.

Elaine and i had pinky promise =).(i don`t think there is a need to blog out anyway)
So that is about it.

I guess i can officially say i am either silently resigned from LJS or they officially fired me.

So i am now currently jobless again T_T.

All because i was sick and i didn`t dare to tell them as i already skip one day of work already.

And my dad bought all GREEN PAINT to refurnish my house.

My house is going to look like some forest or alien planet now.

So DAMM green ok >.<. Do we really look like twins?(Taken a long time ago LOL)

This few days.

It really got me pondering.

Why no matter what i do.

I am just not given the same love that others have.

It`s not that i crave for it but sometimes you will feel kind of disappointed as you are better/done much more but the love and regconition you receive is much less.

For example,in the past,when i was still very young,my grades was always better than my brother`s.

But why the one who get canned often was me?

My brother never gotten canned in his whole entire life.(My dad don`t canned while well mum`s are biased toward little brothers).

And no matter how good my results were,my parents never praised me.

Well once i scored 99/100 for my maths.

Highest results that i ever gotten.

But all they ever notice is the one mark that i lost.

It is very demoralising and thinking about it just makes me pissed?Upset?Unfair?

Since young i feel neglected as a child already(can`t help it as i stayed with my relatives till i am 3).

The only thing i can say i am lucky to have are i have some very good friends i can count on.

I never well really been the affectionate type of person or neither will i express my love to them.
Because i realised i am a jinx to myself in relationships with people.

I am like a bomb to myself.

Any moment i can self-destruct and any moment i can lose everything that is important to me just by showing one word - affection.

Whenever i act nonchalent or heartless,people seem to come to me instead.

And whenever i started to care,this is the time they pack up and leave.

Weird huh?

That is why i feel that i am a jinx to myself.

But it`s painful bottling up this feelings.

I don`t want to but i have to.

Because i don`t want to lose things that are important to me.

There is a saying in chinese that says "being kind to others is equivalent to being cruel to yourself".

I think this phrase suits the jinx/curse that is born within me.

The moment i start showing humanity and compassion, that is when i lose myself, there is no best of both worlds.

The moment i start giving,is the moment i start losing every bit of myself maybe including my life perhaps.

I guess i can equate this to balance.

Well,in terms of relationship only whether it is with friends,family or whatever.

I feel that i am a jinx to myself in relationships.

Nothing ends well and i have to live with it.

I guess the only way to overcome this is to have no relationship at all, no connections.

As having no relationships/connections is less painful than putting your heart into something that you will lose it someday.

So the many important people in my life,promise that you won`t leave me?

Even if i say this,it won`t help.

I can`t control fate as i am born under the number of saturn.

The planet of fate that i have no control over.

I am not superstitious but this is what is actually happening to me time and again.

But at least i know the reason why now.

It has nothing to do with my actions,maybe this is just how my life is supposed to be,i don`t want to surrender to fate but how am i going to fight against what is already planned for me?

How is the little me going to make a difference to make my life a little better?

Please don`t walk away from my life will you?Friends,family and even you?

What you said today makes me wonder,you said the people close to you will always turn out unhappy.

I wonder if i have this effect too,that`s why they leave me one by one time and again.

Please don`t think that way because i know you are a nice person and those people leaving you is not your fault(well some people you met are really inconsiderate and selfish -.-").

I want you to know that at least i got a friend to keep me company now and that makes me happy :).

Helpless and confused.

Hope i don`t get nightmares.

Good night.

Going to go to my dreamland of weird dreams(Hopefully no dreams tonight eh).

Yeterday night i taking pictures of dream of cute mini horses,can someone interpret what it means?

Hahas lol :).

Tata shall blog again tomorrow \(^_^)/ - Hopefully i will stay like this hahas.

Happy new year!

2011-01-03T23:37:00.001+08:00

Happy 2011!!!

Ok it isn`t 4 hours before New Year but i love this pic so i have to post it.
And i am sure nobody have this pic as your new year`s blog post right?

So i assume it is original?^_^

Btw if you are wondering who this cute guy is...

He is my idol kevin woo from u-kiss!!!U U U U-kiss eh~Brave sound~Brave sound~>.<.

Well i posted his pic because he is really a wonderful + fantastic person.

I shall tell you why next time when i am free because i have too much to say opps =x.

He is like a role model to me.

From him i learnt a lot of things.

Why i find him amiable?

Because he never fails to make me laugh,his attitude towards life and kindness is what makes him admirable.

Perserverance,hardwork and determination is the key to success and no matter what failures you have faced that may upset you,you have to get back up as you don`t want to let yourself down right?

Aww...whatever it is how can you not love this sweet guy who never fails to make people laugh.

My role model fighting ok!!!

I have to admit i am envious of him because he is so talented!!!(he know how to dance,sing,play piano and guitar :( aww.)

Ok back to the main point...

Ok basically i will start with my new year`s resolution...

Hmm...

1)Work harder and study harder

2)Learn an musical instrument(Piano,guitar or drums) >=)

3)Be more healthy(Run everyday GOGOGO!)

4)Eat less

5)Be more thrifty and get more jobs to support my "going overseas" trips

6)Sing more(I bet no one knows i love singing.Only my family members know =x)

7)Learn a dance(I know i am not talented in dancing so knowing one will be good enough for me)

8)More time to keep my hamsters/guinea pig/toys company.I guess that is it for now.

I still have a long list though.

Till then.Tatata.LOL.

Even now i still miss you.

So everytime i ask myself "Do i still love you?"

There are somethings i just could not explain.

But everytime i console myself by saying.

If you love me too,you will come to find me so whatever i do now will be futile.

So the only thing i can do is to stay put on this spot.

Hoping you will return :).

Now off to watch "we are dating".

Off to check whether and see if there is any new episodes.

Good night all and sweet dreams ^_^ hahas.

Disappointed/Pissed/Regret

2010-09-17T00:52:00.001+08:00

I dunno why but i dunno whether i should be pissed/disappointed or regret.
Having the feeling of being cheated 3 times a day is not a good feeling.
Seems like my care and concern worths nothing.
I wonder why i even bother to call.
Since you said i won`t understand.
If only i did not make the phone call.
Sometimes it is better to be ignorant/oblivious.
Ok i am going to calm myself down bye~

Nothing feels worse than these...

2010-09-16T14:05:00.003+08:00

I totally have no mood now.
Even though i have many things to blog about in the last few days.
I am feeling the worst of all the feelings i ever have.
That is...
Being cheated.
I.experience.it.once.again.
I wonder why do i have to be so honest and that people have to lie me time and again.
I do not deny i do tell lies - white lies.
At least they don`t hurt.
I need some time alone.
Bye.

UT :(

2010-09-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

My life revolves around UT and work now.

I hope the holidays arrive soon!

And many kpop artists will be coming in oct!

YAY ^_^!

I am going to stalk them this time.

Make some new friends from fan clubs.

There were all very nice.

Went to the arcade two days ago and caught capybara and gloomy bears =D.

HAPPY but i also spent a lot on those T_T.

Thanks huishan for accompaning me!

Hope you like your ice cream!

Must love and treasure it ok and your domo too!

Busy weekend

2010-08-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

Been working last sat and sun.

Hope i have time to study as i have to start working again this friday.

Recently there were many unhappy events happening.

I guess that i am unlucky.

But well,going to enjoy marcus birthday celebrations tomorrow.

Glad that i am going to see hei family again :).

Happy birthday mark!

2010-08-21T02:29:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday ^_^

Hope you like the present.

Well today i went to pets republic to see if there is the guinea pig i wanted.

I found one similar but not really the one i wanted.

And it`s expensive $180 T_T!

Ya i went there ALONE again.

It was unbearable as there was no MUSIC in my phone and i am going to such a far place.

JURONG EAST!

After that went to plaza singapura to celebrate his birthday with mark,joyce and i forget his name chin feng?
I was late so sorry make his friend wait for so long.
The train we took terminate 3 times and that makes it even worse!

When we reached there we wanted to watch step up,but only left the front two seats so never watched.

Then we went to macdonalds to eat and chat.

We spent most of our time thinking what to do next.

After we FINALLY decided on how to spend rest of our day,we went to the pc bunk there to play truth or dare with the bottle that was left at the macdonald`s table by some people who sat there before we came LOL.

That is when i know some of their hidden secrets and it was funny when we did dare like asking people for number and did some idiotic stuff etc XD.

Played untill 11pm plus then we trained home.

After reached my house void deck,chatted with mark for awhile then i went home.

Suddenly talk about my past about the "two C".

As i mention them i felt sad and i wanted to cry but no tears came out LOL!

Felt that i was kind of stupid too.

I only all these "past" to my good friends.

Only they know.

Now mark you also know!

I do not know why i told you but you should be honoured hahas!

I only told this to all my close friends before =\.

Tomorrow and sun going to work at imm hush puppies!

Thanks to lingyu for the intro :).

Alright i am going to sleep now.

Goodnight people.

Shall upload all the photos tomorrow!

Random fact about me :): I hate bandung!!!

OINK OINK OINK!

2010-08-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

Oh no~

I am thinking of getting a guinea pig~OINKKKKK~

But there are so many choices for me to choose.

However i like the most de orange brown de but dun have T_T.

There is also a white/brown one also very cute.

Most likely i will get that.

But there is a grey one which is also quite cute and it`s cheaper!

HOW!!!T_T

I already think of what christmas present i want le!

A GUINEA PIG!

But what i want most is still a lionhead rabbit(the one that appear in my dream).

But it is too ex lah.

I already come up with my christmas list(too early i know XD)

3 things i want for christmas~

1: Save up for that lionhead rabbit.

2: See u-kiss(pray for them to come to singapore in december T_T)

3: IPOD ^_^

Santa i am not too greedy.

Get me one of this will do.

Especially the second one please ^_^!

Top one

2010-08-17T14:01:00.000+08:00

Went to sing K at top one yesterday.

$18.

Ex sia T_T.

Now there is a big hole in my pocket.

Talked to ger at the phone yesterday.

Long time never chat with her.

She said she only have 15 minutes to spare.

But ended up talking for 2 hours XD.

To be continued~

Happy birthday!

2010-08-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUISHAN!
I put this in purple wor.
Your favourite colour =DDD!

This post is specially delicated to her.
Touched ma?
Hahas.

LASTLY,what i want to say today is.
I want to leave this place.
Not as in die or anything.
I want to go somewhere far away.
Where nobody knows me there.
A place where i can start anew.
A place where i can truely be myself.
Me.
To be honest,the person you see now isn`t the real me.
But there is one person i realise i unknowingly showed my true self.
I wonder how she made me do that.
She must be an incredible person then :D.
I must admit that i am tired truely tired.
In the past,no matter how much i rebel and protected my own dreams and pride,not only they do not support me,they will use a different perspective to look at me(and of course it is a negative one).
They may not say anything infront of you(i rather they say it) and when they finally do say it,it really make me disappointed.
As i realised,in their eyes,i was always "like this or like that"(also negative) when i have no idea they think of me that way.
I guess that is why i hide my true self to avoid disappointment.
It hurts even more when this happened with your good friend.
They might appear that they are alright with my opinion,but deep down is another story.
Maybe this also means that i no longer trusts people around me that lead to all the facade(the mask).
I am tired of all this facade.
I don`t want to hide my real self.
It is tiring.
Really tidous.
I had enough hiding my true self just to make the people around me happy.
But have they ever thought of me?(Maybe some)
I have this urge to go to a new place because afterall what i have shown now is already implicted in people.
I really hate one thing about myself.
Why!!!
Why can`t i see the negative traits of people.
Some people have the ability to turn good traits of people into bad traits.
Some people have the ability of gossiping about others without any karma retribution happening to them.
Why man!!!
Why can`t i do the same?
I would feel so much better LOL!
I learnt the art of gossiping through my friends.
Now i am learning to use it too LMAO.
But i really do not like it.
It just one of the ways to get back at people i guess.
I believe in karma so i believe in getting back at people who do bad things.
That is the only way they will learn.
Punishment.
That is to help good people who are suffering that good people deserve good treatment!
Ok i think that is all for now.
I sound so draggy why do i always talk so philosopical =\.
I want a new life of adventures,happiness and something out of the ordinary =D.
Can my wish be granted?=D

I have a wish.
No maybe i should call it my aim.
If you ask me what i want to become.
I would say.
I want to become an angel.
Why???
Because angels protects and they shine so "prettifully"(i prefer the word pretty over beautiful =x).
They are also god most wonderful appretice.
Then why do i not want to be god?
God is the supreme ruler(Strongest,most powerful,most respected etc).
Anio Anio.(It means no in korean).
Being an angel is better because they are loved and protected by god.
They may not be the most powerful.
But they do not have to worry about anything and make BIG decisions.
They are always happy and carefree.
They are like the children of god,innocent and childlike.
I think it suits me more.
So if i could i would want to be reincarnated as an angel.
Even though i have no religion or remain neutral about whether god exists.
But i do think it is happier to believe that god exists, at least even though nobody loves you,there is still god =D and he will always be there for you.

I need a job LOL

2010-08-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

My belevod idol kevin woo.His voice is jjiang *_* as in lovely and superb.

Hi eka!

Well i had nothing much to do at home and i dun really mind rotting at home.
As school is so drama these days.
So happy happenings.
And scandals =x.
Xueli and jeremy scandal hahahahahaha.
Oh two days ago was her birthday.
I remembered why she cried the day before her birthday.
It shocked all of us.
She said she would tell me the day after but she didn`t :(.
No matter how we asked she refused to tell.
I have to remind myself to spend more time with my hamsters.
I seem to be neglecting them as i was very busy.
I am sorry my dear furry friends :(.
To make up for it i shall post all of your cute pictures tomorrow :D!
Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.
Going to eat botak jones (Y) with hei family and going to my grandma house!
I hope to see that small little gloomy bear again.
I am not going to get it escape from my clutches if i ever see it!
MUAHAHA!
Oh and i had a weird dream yesterday.
Hmm i cannot seem to recall but it is something like i was on a mission.
Some evil people was looking for me and wanted my power or something.
Then turn me into their kind!>.<
So i had to train and stregthen my power so that i can protect myself.
There was this certain head magician or something helping me and guiding me whereever i go.
Then i could not remember the rest.
Oh man what a weird dream.
I hope i can sleep peacefully tonight.
Also survive every ordeal or obstacles i have to face.
Good night everyone and sweet dreams!

Basketball and badminton

2010-07-30T02:19:00.000+08:00

Long ago short hair pic...
Today huishan and nico came over to my house to play basketball and badminton.
It was really fun =D.
Had many things happening these days but lazy to post.
But honestly speaking,i was really happy to know you HUI SHAN JIE!
And yes this post is delicated to her.
Although sometimes she is slow,blur and make me bek chek, but i am very happy to know her =D.
Why???
Because i finally found someone who share similiar ideology as me.
Because i found another alien friend.
Finally someone who could understand how i feel and understand me.
Somehow you remind me of my shadow.
The person i am hiding from people.
Even my friends said i was kind of like you in the past.
They think i changed but i did not.
I was hiding that self within me to avoid arguments.
I really hate people who do not respect others views and opinions.

I always respected and do not try to change other`s views and opinions.

Because i think every individual is special and as long as their thoughts do not harm anyone,i repected their views and would not enforce mine on them.
However, sad to say i have friends who tried to enforce their values to mine.
Whenever i argued or state my point,they would say i am being difficult.
They never understood me and expect me to understand them.
What kind of logic is this?
It is just plain unfair.
Eventually they just say things sacastically and leave me aside.
Well i appreciate the "worry" you have for me,but i really don`t like it when it is too forceful.
It is ok because i do not mind being outcasted or all the problems i will face.
I have to thank you because you are always there supporting me huishan jie.
You are always there to help me when i needed help.
Listen to my complains and woes T_T.
Most importantly you never give up on me even though i make mistakes.
Even though i have not known you for long.
But it seems like eternity~woots!
EWW sounds so disgusting LOL!
You are my unique friend and precious friend.
I am glad to have met you.
Do not change because i like you just the way you are~
Do not care about other people negative comments about you,because i know you are not like that and you are kind person =).
I do not why i said all this,but it is from the bottom of my heart.
I even feel pai seh when writing it because i am not good at expressing my feelings.
But who good or bad to me i know one ok!
I will treat whoever good to me good and whoever bad to me HELL!
Well and last but not least,sarangheyo chingu huishan!
Touched not?
Hahas!
Read le cannot laugh or cry hor!

Long saturday!

2010-07-25T01:58:00.001+08:00

Talked to germaine for hours today.
Been a long time since we chatted =D.
Really had a fun time chatting,thanks ger!
I am starting to like sports and i shall play basketball tomorrow.
I do not wish to see my brother`s friends hoard the court again >:(!
I am tired as it is a long day.
Shall finish this blog post tomorrow tata~

You really do not have to show off.
It just shows how much of a sickening person you have become.
I do not know you anymore.
I believe that this world has karma.
What goes around comes around.
You know what you did.
God have eyes.
You cannot fool.

School days.

2010-07-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

21 July

It was the worst day of my life.

But after playing basketball with vivian,ram,huishan and other friends,i felt much much better.

Sometimes i wonder,what the heck is wrong?

Even after everything,can`t we still be friends?

I did not want to send that message,i hesitate a lot before i did.

I remember last time i told you i was OK,but actually i am not but i did not want you to feel guity or anything.

All the while i have been sparing a thought for your feelings but what about you?

All you have ever done is to hurt me,make me so so confused and unhappy.

Till now,i realised i was not even a friend to you,maybe even less than a stranger.

Nevermind,i have tried my best,i will not ponder about it anymore.

The basketball game was fun.I scored about 3 throws?Maybe more?

Hahas.I remember accidentally hitting and stepping on people`s foot.

Sorry it was not on purpose.

The court was too overcrowded =x.

I tried so hard to avoid getting hit by the ball.There was once the ball bounce over and i run and douge quickly.

I was VERY cautious of the ball.

BUT THEN I STILL GOT HIT.

I was grabbing the ball and vivian came over to snatch it and the ball hit my face T_T.But it`s ok,at least i got the ball in my hands =x.

Huishan did not play no matter how much i persuade and asked her too.

So while they are still playing,i kept her company for a awhile then we went home.

22 July

School was ok even though it is BIOCHEM today.

I hate BIOCHEM.

Met vivian for break today blah blah blah.

Then went home with huishan and nico.

Before that,we waited for nico.

While waiting,out of a sudden,did not know why but we started talking about how our parents met each other and got married etc.

It was funny yet frustrating.

About marriage....

We have the same mindset.

Before marriage,everything was sweet.

And after marriage, even though it is just a little misunderstanding, the drama occurs and the word DIVORSE started to appear too often.

But why even get married when you are thinking of divorse?

Because of what?

Because of loneliness?

Because of wanting to show off?

Because of just wanting a family or child and so just find anyone to settle down?

Because of money?

Because of wanting to wear a wedding dress?

I don`t understand.

I really don`t.

This is what i have seen these days when people get married out of recklessness and when people get into a relationship.
Maybe i do not understand because i am not a person who fall in love very easily.

But when i do,even though i am not together with that person.

I will remember this love for life.

It is really kind of sad huh?

Even though people say nothing lasts forever,nothing is absolute.

People change.

Maybe it is in my personality,i don`t know.

Now there is like less than 50% of my love left.

All i know is i cannot love like before.

I just let my heart fall.

Devoted.

I always believe in making the first move.

Because i did not want to regret.

Because i know WHAT I WANT.

But sadly,WHAT YOU WANT always leave you when you WANT THEM.

Therefore, now there is nothing I WANT ANYMORE.

I will give my love to whoever cares for me most,like my friends and family.

And not to the person i love and care most who does not appreciate.

It is only fair and i won`t get hurt too much.

This is what i have learnt from the philosophy of what we have chatted that day.

Pictures:

Got more but lazy to post.

Watch u-kiss vampire episode yesterday (Y).

It was about blood type personality.

From what i have observed,B blood types really annoys me.

They are sarcastic and nonchalent.

What i cannot stand most is their sarcasm and they expect people to care about their feelings when they are actually nonchalent about others.

Nonchalent - Do not care.

Even though AB are similiar too but at least they are more honest with their words.

They may be harsh but at least less fake then B blood types because they do not use sacarsm you see.

Why i say that is because some people who do not understand the art of sacarsm really suffers under their hands.

Well of course O blood type is the best ya...

Because we are purest hahas!

And we are fun to be with - when we want to and gets hyper.

We get along well with almost everyone.

AND WE ARE THE MOST GENEROUS!!!

I share the same blood type as alexdander,kibum,eli and KEVIN =D.

But it is common anyway LOL.

But i like A blood types better.

Because they are understanding and organised.

They think and care about others before themselves.

That is what i admire about them ya...

What they should try to control is their constant worrying.

LOL hahas.

2010-07-11T20:22:00.005+08:00

Yeah~She`s one fat naughty hamster!

This is me.I hope my hair grow longer >.<
Well,been staying at home these days.
Playing audi and i have no mood at all to study T_T.
Holidays i am going to plan a lot of activities!!!
Holidays faster come!!!
Till then, i love my rotting blog.
LOL...

Why till now i still love you?

Love will not get me down.

2010-07-02T12:49:00.002+08:00

Taken at Gimpo airport 12/6/10

It is a beautiful day today...

TO SLEEP!

The fortune teller is back yesterday.

I went to see her.

The results was...Depressing...hahas...

The tarot card really get me down lah.

I asked her a question that i wanted to know since a very long time.

That had bothered me since then.

I asked her "whether you have ever loved me,whether it is the past,present or future".

I remember the first card which shows a lot of hearts which means the answer is "yes".

But i do not believe it.

WHY?!?!?!

If you loved me but i don`t see any signs of affection from you.

I look around and only see funny/idiotic actions from your friends lah.

To be honest,i really dislike them to the core.

They really ruin my life.

Ok i do not want to continue.

This really pisses me off.

All the while i was disagreeing with what the fortune teller says.

The reason?

1: To test whether she is realiable.

2: Some parts i find it not true so i have to clarify.

But what leaves the big impression is she said that i was stubborn and have a lot of pride.

People ask me to go north i will go south.

I will only listen to the people that i like.

But then good things i will also listen one ok!

I will see how things go before i make a decision.

This is where the story begins.

Hey Mr

2010-06-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hey if you happen to be reading this.
If you happen to find this familiar and it happened in your life before...
Yes it`s you.
I am referring to you.
Hey mr,
I have many things to tell you.
I wouldn`t know if you will be reading this or would you even care but...
All i want to tell you is that i have really fallen for you.
All along i had this feelings kept inside me.
I wonder when it all begun.
I remember i used to look forward to biology class every friday because of you.
My friends find it strange why i like you because you are not really "my type" of guy.
However,after asking myself WHY WHY WHY countless times.
I finally understood.
What i like about you is your kindness,your patience and you are always helpful to those around you.
What is most important is...
You make me very happy when i see you.
I remember that time when your friend was stuck in the rain and couldn`t come back to class and you went down with his umbrella to fetch him.
Nobody volunteered to fetch him except you.[Even though he has lots of good friends in the class(yeah right i suspect things changed a lot now.)]
I still remembering asking you where you are going as presentation is going to start and you won`t make it back on time.
But you still went eventually.
You did not know but this little action of yours really touched me.
Seriously,i have never met a guy like you before NEVER.(It`s not that my guy friends are bad, but they have SOME flaws that i seriously cannot stand.Ok i shall not elaborate.)
However,this action of yours really bothered me.
Sometimes i wonder why you are still so nice to him even though its freaking obvious that he is CRAZY for you.
To be honest,at that time i thought you were gay.
Somehow,i couldn`t get why he was so hostile towards me.
Maybe he knows that i like you?(Strange but at that time my feelings weren`t that confirmed yet.)
I tried to get along with him but i can sense his sacasticness.
After awhile,i sense the class starting to get "not as nice" to me.
But it is not everybody,only those close to him.
Then one fine day he came and talk to me on msn.
Asking me about "whether i`m single","anybody i like" and eventually "leading to you".
Cannot believe that i still have that copy in my laptop.
I still remember that day when i gathered all of my friends to unreveal the "hidden message" within the conversation.
It was hillarious.
And the next day was the most embarrasing moment of my life.
I just step into the badminton court and found these few people giggling.
Have you ever imagined how i feel?(Yes totally embarassed because i was looking at you.)
And then you waved at me suddenly.
The giggling got louder and at that time i really don`t know how to react.
As i was afraid,very afraid that they might find out that i liked you.
That is why i had the natural sudden change of behaviour such as acted cold and being nonchalent.
I was afraid that if they found out,they will isolate you from me.
If you have noticed but i guess you wouldn`t,i am friendly to you when your friends aren`t around and i will automatically come talk to you but when they are around it is a different story.
And then friend D asked me to come over to your team(You would not know how happy i am back then),but i have to hide it.
I remembered myself saying "i don`t want to play with you" because i was fed up with myself as i couldn`t catch your ball.
But you did not leave.
I really regret saying that as i don`t mean it.(ARGHH HOW DUMB CAN I GET!)
I am sorry if i hurt your feelings.
I think i am just nervous and dunno why these words come out of my mouth.
I remember telling this to huishan and she said "Oh,you like that ah i can understand.But then other people will think you like him because of your huge reaction while he will think you really dislike him".
Is this what people call reverse psychology?
After you went off i was like upset the whole day.
Why am i saying all these?
Maybe because i think you don`t believe that i like you?
Maybe i would like to know how you actually feel?
Maybe i just want to get my feelings across?
Well all i know is i feel much better after saying out how i actually feel.

I knew from first sight.

2010-04-25T02:03:00.002+08:00

Just came back from korean lesson.

I knew from first sight.

I knew from first sight.

Your lost other half.

Tied to you by a string of fate.

I knew from first sight.

I knew from first sight.

A fated love is like this.

I knew everything from first sight.

Such a nice song man!

GRR FACEBOOK!

2010-04-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

FUCKER FACEBOOK FOR FAILING ME AT THE WRONG TIME!
Today is such an important day.
After today i will be so busy so stop lagging on me!

I WANT A KITTEN KITTEN KITTEN!

2010-04-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

Today randomly talk to vivian about mao mao.

My long lost kitty friend.

I met her by fate and she is always there for me when i am lonely,happy or sad whatsoever.

Ever since i was a little girl,i have always been lonely i guess.

No matter how i may smile to the outside world or the many friends i have now,i still feel somehow lonely inside.

I guess it`s something to do with my past then,well i shall move on and no point dwelling on it.

Maybe i am just born this way,to be lonely,to be alone.

Some people might say i look stuck up.

Well it`s just because i don`t let people into my life easily.

Yes i am picky with my friends and the people i mix with.

I guess am selfish and over protective of myself,like a porcupine =\.(But hey that`s human nature!(If you aren`t going to be proud of youself,who will?)

It`s because i give trust too easily in the past,while people misuse it so i became more cautious.

Ok back to the main story.

I tried to persuade my mum to let me get a pet.

As usual,she refused profusely.

No matter how hard i try,she find excuses by saying "you are not responsible,you will neglect the cat once you are bored of it and it is a life so i shouldn`t mess around with it" blah blah blah kind of bullshit.

I heard enough.

I kept quiet all the while because i am going to prove her my determination,going to show her that i am going to be responsible and prove to her that i am going to be serious in taking care of it till it`s old.

First i have to earn money so that i can support it.

Aww how sweet it will be to have a puppy,bunny and kitten at home.

A feline family of three.

But i will start with one first.

See which breeder message me first LOL.

A kitten and a bunny aww.

With them my life is going to get interesting =).

Now i am going to post some pictures of those adorable kittens.(Be prepared as it is extremely adorable and lovable.)

Jaejin`s kitty after grooming kawaii neh?

Aww sweet couple.White bunny = me Black bunny = vivian LOL.

RANDOM.His rat face.So cute.Having him as a pet is every girl`s dream!LMAO.=x.

This bunny is super cute!

The kitten i am getting - a persian.

The mighty dogs.

I think having a pet is like having a daughter/son for me to take care of.Something i can look forward to everyday.Most importantly they make me feel needed as i know they need me to take care of them for the rest of their lifes.

I wonder if what is on your mind.

Many people will be worried about you if you are unhappy.

Somehow what you are feeling is what i am feeling now.

What a coincidence.

Weird.

I always use this word to describe things that are unexplainable.

Hope you don`t tire yourself too much.

All the best in whatever you do and stay healthy!

Disappointed.

2010-04-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

After all the efforts of digging out your blog.I found nothing.WHY WHY WHY!

*Pray to god that your cyworld blog miracleraly appear on search engine.*T.T.

IM BACK!!!

2009-12-17T01:30:00.008+08:00

OMG SORRY BLOG!

I have abandoned you for too long :(.

But im back to revive you once more!!!

See this BASTERD?!?!?!

EVEN THOUGH THIS MAY LOOK LIKE A COUPLE PICTURE BUT WE ARE NOT A COUPLE AND NEVER WILL BE!!!!

Yes he is marcus tan zhi xiong and is currently enjoying himself in korea!!!

I scolded him basterd because he can play facebook games there and yet not talk to us on msn!!!

However despite all that we are still waiting for your return but actually more of good news that you have saw CHANGMIN!!!

Ok i shall stop ranting about my unfillial grandson and here are some pictures...Brings back memories...

We sure have changed hahas....

5 angels and whos the nerd face behind in red?=x.

Reminisce

2009-08-25T23:12:00.004+08:00

Its going to be teacher`s day soon!!!
And hei family is going to visit NORTH VISTA SECONDARY again!!!
I remember the first day and first year i spent there.
It was dreadful.
It was mainly due to these 3 teachers,Lai lai,Ba yi and bulldog.
I guess those in 1e5/2005 will know.
AND GUESS WHAT!!!
HEI FAMILY MEMBERS ARE ALL FROM THAT CLASS!!!
OK IM LAME BECAUSE THATS OBVIOUS.
I remember my second year in north vista.
Spent most of my time in cca.
During drama i watched people act,we played games,chased people around(i remember vivian and i used to chase jie).
My third year in north vista.
Nothing much happened.
I only remember that day when i liked this camp instructer.
I was ranting about him wherever i go.
Till my friends are fed up =x.
But he was quite popular with the girls in our school too!!!
Last year in north vista.
Ok this was supposed to be a busy year and boring year but something came and changed me.
He appeared.
Well it was supposed to be a good chance for me but i guess i did not make use of it well.
I remember i saw him walk past in school quite a few times since i was in secondary one.
By the time i am in secondary 4,he graduated.
Aww sad.
Coincidentally,he was an art student and he was close to my art teacher.
One day when my art teacher had something on and he called him to guide us on our coursework.
At that time,i was like omg its such a good opportunity.
He was like an idol to me.
My art teacher was always praising him and telling us about his artwork.
The first day he came he was nice and helpful.
But as time goes by,he kind of changed our impression of him.
Omg why does this sound like a confession.
I remember how ger used to tease me about this.
I was silly to thinking of staying back during art lessons just hoping to see him.
Yet i did not have the courage to talk to him.
I remember there was a time he was looking at my drawings and i replied quite a harsh "what" response.
He stopped looking and i regretted what i did.
I was nervous because i liked him.
I do not understand myself why i have to act as if nothing happened to the person i like.
Why cant i just try to get close to him instead of being nervous and tried to act cool when around him.
But to have the courage to write this shows that i have moved on.
I wish him all the best in achieving his dreams and goals.
Maybe by coincidence to see him in school again,i hope i have the courage to flash him a smile and say hello.
This memories will always be kept within me.

I reminisce the times when we used to tease sheryl about kiwi.
I reminisce the times we used to eat macdonalds breakfast together.
I reminisce the times we used to chat during maths lesson.
I reminisce the times marcus was so irritating that i have to throw his book till it accidentally appear infront of our geography teacher.
I reminisce the times i spent in drama with vivian,sheryl and weiying.
I reminisce the times ger and mengyun sang in class.
I reminisce the times we used to eat in class.
I reminisce the times we used to swear at the teachers we dislike.

There are still many memories,too many that i do not think i can finish stating all of time.
But they will always be kept in my heart.
These memories where there was happiness and laughter that north vista had given me.

VIVA LA VISTA!!!

Why do i feel this way???

2009-06-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

Today went to vivo city with Maisarah and Khairunnisa.
Seemed like this was the first time i went shopping with my classmates =D.
We went to walk around and i saw a windmil that was very special.
Maisarah and Khairunnisa saw it too.
Felt like buying it but i know that my Mum would not like it due to some superstitious stuff so i decided not to buy hahas.
Once again i went crazy over the cute toys at "Xin Tian Di".
I was so happy when i went into the shop and saw the tv playing DBSK VIDEOS!!!
I did not notice it at first but when i saw Jaejoong i immediately went crazy because i know that soon i am going to see Changmin`s face on the video as well =D.
I felt that it was such a coincidence.
I never saw or heard about DBSK untill Weiming showed me the mirotic video on youtube.
Once i know about DBSK,and today seemed to be the first time i went shopping after i knew about DBSK existence and i saw their video in the shop!!!
Maybe they might come to singapore for a concert soon(I HOPE SO!!!).
When i was in the shop,i could not help but kept staring at the screen.
And it seemed like those people working in the shop spotted me!!!
They were like giving me strange glances and made me feel so pai seh =.=.

After that we went to Long John.
I watched khairunnisa eat and she was so cute when she eats.
I like watching people eat =x.
Ok i know i sound sick to like watching people eat.
Thats what my friends used to say =x.
I hope khairunnisa wont feel awkward XD.
It was nice of her to offer us her fries.
Thanks khairunnisa!

After eating we went to Candy Empire.
I used to buy a lot of things there.
Cannot resists the chocolates there but i know the economy is bad and everything so i stopped myself from buying all the stuffs that i wanted to buy.
After Khairunnisa and Maisarah went home,i continued to roam around vivo city.
My friend could not make it to accompany me so i shopped alone.
As i walked,i thought about him again.
I do not know why,maybe its been such a long time since i last saw him.
I thought all the schoolwork and new environment had made me forget about him.
Why is it that whenever i am alone,i think of him among everyone else?
I guess absence really make the heart grows fonder.
I watched a movie starring DBSK yesterday and there was this part about Yunho.
His company made him go for a vacation.
There was this fangirl who wrote a letter to Yunho saying that she is dying and if her letters stopped coming,it means that she is dead.
There was this day when her letters stopped coming and Yunho thought that she was dead and went to pay his respects to her.
When yunho reached the destination,she was still alive though but she actually had an illness and she lied to Yunho so that she can at least see him once before she died.
They spent some days together and there was this day before she died she says "when i die,i want to become a star that shines on the person i love" and "being able to see Yunho,i could die happy now".
The next day was the day she died.
I thought about what that girl had said and felt the same way.
If only i could also spend one day with him,just one day.

On the way to "xin tian di" again,i was deep in thought until this guy beside me said some weird stuffs.
He was talking to his friends and suddenly turned to me and showed me a handsign.
He asked me if i knew what it was(I was already shocked by the way he talked to his friends and i tried to keep a low profile so that he would not notice me but ARGHH!!!) and i shooked my head.
I couldnt catch what he said and when i reflect on what the handsign looked like,it looked like some kind of vulgar language from a foreign country =.=.
I just couldnt resists seeing DBSK and the cute stuffed toys that is why i head to "xin tian di" over and over again XD.
Was looking for their album but couldnt find it,wonder why the shop played DBSK on tv when they were not advertising their product.
Wanted to buy the stuffed toys too but i stopped myself XD.
They were hard to resist.
I was staring at the screen again when i saw that GUY again!!!
He went the other direction just now and i wondered when he came into the shop.
He smiled at me so being polite i smiled back to him.
Maybe unknowingly vivian is spreading her attracting "weirdos" energy to me that is why i met this weirdo today.
Vivian please spread your energy to marcus instead LOL.
Im sure he loves weirdos =D.
I quickly leave the shop after i saw that guy.
Went to the arcade and see nothing interesting except the catching machine but i stopped myself from playing as it is a waste of money.

Went to the pet shop and the cute hamsters never failed to cheer me up.
I wanted one since i was like p3 as many of my friends had them.
However,my mum always refused to let me buy them.
Although now she is more open minded in letting me keep them as im older.
But now i am afraid to keep them due to the maggot phobia.
I am afraid that it would attract maggots into my room.
Imagine them crawling around just make me feel disgusted.
I have to make a choice XD.
But having a pet will make me feel very happy and keeps me occupied.
I love animals a lot.
If i have one at least i have something to keep me company everyday,something to talk to and something to listen to my sorrows.

I know it is impossible between us.
But i could not get myself to forget you.
Tell me what i should do.
I am confused.
Tired.
And lonely.

Look at the time it`s so late >.< !!!

2009-06-14T04:51:00.001+08:00

Must be thinking why i am awake at such a late time right?
Maybe its because my holidays are going to end T.T.
While my friends are just starting,why must rp be so cruel!!!
Played npc with carrotgal just now,won a lot of dens ^_^.
And she is still playing at such a time.
FURTHERMORE,I STILL CANNOT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT LAOER MAKE ME HIS WAITER IN RESTAURANT CITY!!!
HOW COULD YOU!!!
I DEMAND YOU TO SACK ME RIGHT AWAY!!!
ARGHH AND U STILL CHOOSE AN AH MA CHARACTER FOR ME!!!
LOL and i am still listening to 5566 songs at such a time XD.
*Yawns* i think i should go to sleep soon.
Although i am tired but i cant get to sleep.
I will just end up rolling in bed and thinking of many things,my future,my life and that person XD.
I wish i could let go.
But somehow i am still lingering on the memories XD.
It is impossible as our distances are just too far apart.
There are two choices i have to make.
One is the courage to go forward.
Another is wait for the chance a.k.a the coincedence that i will meet him again.
HAIX it is like waiting for money to fall from the sky!!!
AND I DUN HAVE ENOUGH COURAGE!!!
But things are better now as i am psychoing myself to get over him.
I would like to also thank my friends for their support,i am just not brave enough and chooses to escape from the fact that i like him and want to know more about him =x.
I am going to keep my heart locked up from now.
You will be left as an important memory.
I guess you will be something i will never be able to get hold of.
Feels like i have no courage left within me.
Seems like there is a part of me that fears rejection.
I do not want you to avoid me or find me annoying.
Till the day i regain my courage,which will make me stronger.
And that is when i will bravely face you,along with these feelings kept deep within my heart.
Wish that i am the hands molding you.
I am there to know what happens around you.
Watching over you.
I really hope that one day you will notice my existence XD.

Moving on~

2009-06-12T22:53:00.001+08:00

Hey hey~
It`s been a really very long time since i blog.
Met the hei family yesterday(11/6/09),a memorable day and it is also the day of the truth.
Well,i was reluctant to tell at first but i think i should be honest to myself and of course all the dearest hei family members.
My darkest secrets are out T.T,guess i have no more secrets to keep anymore.
Actually i find it quite painful to keep things in your heart and lying to myself or others.
So li ling is going to be an honest girl and i did it!
I hope these are the only people who know this secret and help me protect it ya~(cause i dun want anyone else to know liao >.<).
Went to eat sakae sushi,we ended up chatting more than eating.
It had really been a long time since we chatted.
Today went to play badminton with Marcus,Wenhui,Gabriel and Wei ying.
So sad that Germaine did not come T.T.
Marcus keep bullying his poor ah gong!!!
How could you!!!
I make sure one day i am going to smash the ball hard on your face!!!=x
Since it looked like its going to rain and there are some droplets of rain falling down,we went to play heart attack under Wenhui`s void deck.
And thanks Wenhui for the soya bean milk!!!
Dunno why Gabriel kept winning,and both marcus and gabriel hand were the most red =D.
Marcus is like a violent person who doesnt show any mercy when he won,our poor hands got tortured T.T.
While Wenhui is so enthusiatic when playing the game,when i am so stressed out trying to win and get a chance so that i can get revenge on the violent marcus!!!.
But i keep ending up hitting the table!!!
ARGHH!!!
After that we played uno and went home.
So sad that neither Gabriel or Marcus gets to forfeit.
Well there is always a next time >=).
Oh Marcus is having his DB swimming test soon,any hei family member interested in seeing him drown or swim like a ducky can inform gabriel.
He is going to be TP`s tourguide!Hahas!
Ok i guess that`s it for today.
Dunno when i will ever blog again.
Till then XD.

Us!!!Not the full picture of hei family though.

Sport`s day 2008!

Ok nerdy me doing nerdy pose XD.

Graduation High Tea

The girls =D.

Will i be able to let go of you?

2009-05-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

So many things happened this few weeks XD.
Yesterday went to the omega talk thingy and guess what!!!
We capture a picture of andy sleeping!!!
How can he not pay attention to the speaker!
Well we(vivian and me) took out our phone and managed to capture a shot.
Or maybe more than one shot.
I guess this teaches him not to fall asleep during lectures.
Actually both vivian and me wasnt really listening to the talk once andy found out his picture was snap!!!
And he grab our phone and threatened us!!!
So bad right!!!
Actually we also took his phone, cause he dunno take how many of our uglam pictures without us knowing!!!
Damm it!!!
I tried to delete it but i cant!!!
ARGHH!!!
But later i still returned his phone but i didnt know he took my memory card away without me knowing untill vivian tell me.
How could u do that andy!!!
Now u even lost it!!!
Nvm even though u took my memory card,the images are still in my phone,i only lost all my songs T.T.
Hope u can return me a memory card asap,cause i really need it or i am really going to chop you into pieces!!!
Ok now i talk about today.
Was a little blur about the maths module.
Or maybe very very blur.
Felt sorry for the team as i did not contribute much.
Sorry team!
After school went to compasspoint.
Vivian wanted to buy her godma`s mother`s day present while i buy my top.
Then she shun bian meet tallie also.
Chatted with him,although i didnt talk much.
So paiseh to let him treat us,next time must treat him back!
Found out that he is quite a nice guy.
Looks like somebody`s taste not bad =x.
Maybe one day should go china travel cause tallie say untill so fun XD.
Eh vivian now u know kbox actually quite fun de.
Cant wait to hear u sing lalala~ XD.
Then after that home sweet home~

I know you its easy for you to close up.
But now here`s ur chance.
Although it comes at the wrong time XD.
I didnt expect that u will feel sad for him when he is sad.
I thought u will be happy about what you have heard XD.
Maybe i should give up too.
Maybe he will be unhappy to know that i like him.
I wouldnt want him to feel that way too.
I wouldnt want him to be unhappy XD.

New life

2009-04-22T22:55:00.001+08:00

Wow it seems like a long time since i blog.
But i blog for a reason this time.
My life in rp was great,my classmates were nice and friendly people,rp has a nice environment,nice food etc.
Since everything seem to be so nice,i keep wondering to myself,why am i not happy?
It is like everytime before i go to bed i keep thinking,whether spending time in rp would be a waste and whether i will be a failure once again.
I know i do not want to be a failure EVER AGAIN!
Going to rp really make me feel like a BIG FAT FAILURE!!!
In class,i may be happily chatting with my classmates but i know deep down rp is not the place i want to be,whether how nice environment is,or how nice and friendly my classmates are or how delicious the food may be.
I never knew i could feel this way,although i am quite sad but i am enduring it.
Maybe because of that little "hope" i still have in it.
Another reason i am sad of coming here is because of "that person".
Before i ever get a chance to tell "that person",i feel that i am drifting further and further away.
I do not know why it could make me feel so sad,but haix XD
I hope no one asks me who "that person" is,and for those who know,you know hahas.
And please dun let the cat out of the bag hahas.
I have trust and faith in the people who know hahas!
I miss north vista because of hei family.
When can i ever see you guys again!!!T.T
And ger i wonder how your life is now,its been a long time since i called you.
Hope you have time to spare for chatting =x.
I am starting to miss the past now that everything is so new and unfamiliar.
I really miss you guys even though the life in rp is great T.T.
PLEASE SPARE SOME TIME TO MEET UP!!!LOLS XD
Hei Family Truly,
Leona aka Vin hei the rich =x

Quiz time!

2009-04-02T14:17:00.002+08:00

I have been tagged by vivian to do this quiz =D.

01. List 5 people whom you want to do this quiz.
Since vivian name marcus and ger so i choose other people =x
1:Lingyu
2:Yongling
3:Sheryl
4:Weiying
5:Wenhui

02. Your name.
Leona =x

03. Your Age
17

04. Attached/Single?
Single and loving it =D

05. Five of your closest friend
Germaine
Vivian
Sheryl
Lingyu
Yongling
And there is many more!!!I havnt include family members!!!

06. Your 2 favourite colours
Red and Pink

07. Story book/Comic?
Matantei Loki Ragnarok/Naruto(cause of sasuke)/Vampire knight(cause of zero)/

08. Do you hav a crush?
Um Um Um...dunno hahas.

09. Have an unknown person asked you for your number before?
Ya.

10. If yes, did you give your number to the person who asked?
Depends like vivian say "only give decent people your number" hahas.

11. Name 2 girl friend that you are close to
Germaine and Vivian.

12. Name 2 guy friend that you are close to
Marcus and Gabriel(The two illegimate family members =x).

13. Do you play online game?
Ya.

14. Do you play Maplestory?
Yup a noob.Highest lvl only 39 XD.

15. Do you play Audition?
YES!!!Because got fruity five to crap with me there hahas.

16. Favourite numbers? Favourite alphabets?
3 and 8.A lot sia but favourite is H and L.

17. Hotmail url?
dog_lee101@hotmail.com ------> ADD THIS LOL.

18. Would you rather go out with your stead or your friend?
Tough question.Both are equally important XD.

19. Do you trust your stead?
If he/she is worthy of my trust =x.

20. Money or friends?
LOL i like vivian`s explanation =x.
From some examples,actually sometimes money can buy friends =x.

21. Stead or friends?
Both are important!!!

22. Anime or drama?
Anime

23. Best girl-friend
Lingyu/Yongling.

24. Best guy-friend
Erm i cant think of anyone.Close guy friends arent always the best =x.

~Quiz End~
I'm going to join carrotgal in audi now... Tata~ =D

OMG

2009-03-20T04:07:00.000+08:00

GOSH its 4am and im still not asleep!
Crapping with vivian and marcus right now and blog hunting.
Saw some interesting yet disgusting never before seen footages XD.
I was shock and guess i wont be able to sleep.
Oh and happy 17th birthday to yongling ^_^.
May all your wishes come true.

How i spend my time xD

2009-03-19T03:57:00.000+08:00

LOL this few days is audi,audi and audi.

Today got patch so didnt get get to use audi for very long.

Hmm besides audi is sleeping,watching tv and eating.

Club 1(White vs Purple)

Ballroom(dunno why but i love ballrooms xD)

New cpl mode(nth special just make ppl pek chek only)

One of the most sucessful muacks LOL.

Yes this is me i am a PONYTAIL.I wonder what made me buy it LOL.

OK this is random xD.

Since transport fee is expensive,i can only spend my time on audition.

Whether it is spamming,crapping or playing different dance modes,it is still enjoyable as it keeps me from getting bored.

More importantly,there is my audi dear,didi,meimei,jiejie,gay friends,les partners and friends to keep me company or else i will be bored to tears xD.

AND TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY,OUR KBOX TRIP HERE WE COME!

YEAH IM SO HAPPY AND EXICTED =D.
LETS SING TO OUR HEART`S CONTENT!

What`s happening?

2009-03-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Went to rp for enrollment.
I finally got my own laptop woots!
But i was upset that my audition patch keep guai lan me.
And i got a job yay!
Thanks wenhui for introducing me the job.
There are many things that are seriously troubling me,i wonder why.
Are you avoiding me?
If you are,then what is the reason?
I thought i was supposed to be the one avoiding you.
I do not know why,but by your actions i feel that you are not honest with me.
Maybe im just being paranoid,i tried avoiding you because i feel that you are dishonest but i feel bad doing so.
I hope you will not confuse me anymore like how i used to confuse you =\.

FUCK OFF!

2009-03-10T22:02:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to be a happy day.
It was my first time flying kite.
Then someone told me something that spoils my day.
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO LECTURE ME!!!
FUCK OFF
NB
CB
KNN
ASSHOLE
DUN STEP ON MY TAIL OR I MAKE SURE U PAY FOR IT!!!
Tomorrow going to rp for the enrollment thing.
Finally i get to have my own laptop woots!

Sad T.T

2009-03-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

Haix been staying at home for the whole day this week!!!
Im so damm bored but it keeps raining i cant even go out =(.
And today there is a big thunderstorm.
I was taking a nap and it kinda woke me up.
Then i was sitting at the living room watching the lightning xD.
I felt weird as the thunder didnt stop untill some time.
I was worried if something is going to happen or what was the thunder is trying to convey.
The sound of the thunder seem like a language,trying to tell us something but i would never know what it means unless i got some kind of superpowers =\.
I even thought of calling/sms Ger but dunno why i didnt and just sat there watching and listening to the thunder like an idiot.
Thoughts came filling my mind may it be happy or sad.
Why am i behaving like an idiot nowadays =.=",maybe im just bored or maybe it`s something else.

Thank you everyone!

2009-03-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

I know i havent been blogging for very long.
Sorry if this is late but i want to thank those who wishes me happy birthday and all the presents etc.
^_^ i hope those who are supposed to see this sees this.
And ger i told u i was touched u still remember the robot pendant that i like T.T.
And i do not know why there is a blouse =\.
That blouse a bit too big size for me,very long ok i know im short,i also wish to grow taller.
Oh and the diary dunno why i got it too,i havnt even opened it =\.
Lol dunno whether i should put my secrets in =x.
Anyway i also nearly forgot the password for my bear de diary,but glad that i managed to anyhow press and get it back =D.
Um so i guess the best place to keep your secrets is in your head =X.
Nah i bet i can even keep my secrets for long with ger around =X.
Then it turns out to be not a secret anymore.
Anyway i still thank u guys for the presents ^_^.

Super Fun Day!

2009-02-27T12:02:00.001+08:00

Had a super fun day yesterday!!!
Hope there is more of such family gathering!!!

buffet!

2009-02-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

I hope things will be a smooth one.
I really hope.
I want to happily enjoy my buffet =x.
And eat like a pig.
I also hope someone dun late and someone dun angry.
Lets make this a happy day.
Its been a long time since we seen each other right?
At least i think it is.
TAMPINES SEOUL GARDEN HERE WE COME!

OMG OMG OMG IM GOING CRAZY!!!

2009-02-23T17:28:00.000+08:00

Suspect X movie going to be out in cinemas on the 26th of feb!!!
OMG OMG OMG!!!
It is based on my favourite japanese drama DETECTIVE GALILEO!!!
OMG IM GOING CRAZY ALREADY!!!
IM
DEFFINATELY GOING TO WATCH IT!!!
NO MATTER HOW POOR I AM!!!
Manabu Yukawa(Fukuyama Masaharu) and Kaoru Utsumi(Kou Shibasaki) rocks!!!
Now i need to find people to go with me who`s interested pls tag me xD!!!
~Love is a trick question,let the battle of wits begin~

The part about the base x height divide by love is hilarious!!!

what is this feeling that make me feel sad all of a sudden o.O

2009-02-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

Dun feel like elaborating lol.
Oh and ger thanks for the info =x.
Today went to grandma`s house again and pass my cousin her birthday present.
Hope she likes it and "Happy Belated Birthday" to my dear cousin XinYing.
I found out that we actually went to the same CAMP!!!
UNDER CAMELOT!!!
HAHAHA.
I suddenly have SOO much to talk about!
She first told me she already went for the camp,she thinks it sucks that it has no excitement,dirty toilets blah blah blah.
Not only that,she gets to see her classmates bathing outside the toilet.
I was like shocked and wonder if kids nowadays are so open.
Later she explain is outside the toilet the place where the sink is.
But she later elaborate that if people walk past they could see.
I was like OMG and wonder if there is water there for them to bathe,maybe the sink.
Then she says there was one fish swimming around and a centipide.
Two years ago,i didnt get to see the fish and centipide.
Hahas,i understand that the toilet is extremely dirty and wrote it in my reflection book.
So did my cousin she even wrote in her diary to ask someone to go clean it.
LOL then she told me about her primary school stuffs.
Reminds me of the childhood me,with all the unbearable classmates i have.
Another one of my sad past,dun wan to elaborate about it.
So we chatted about camp stuffs which i wrote a whole lot on my blog on the 21th of march two years ago.
Then i went to compass point to borrow books and buy presents,went to jack`s place wanted to say hi to daughter but didnt see her.
Tomorrow going to find my godma and eat lunch with her.
YAY the yong tou fu laksa that i havnt eat for a long time!
Its really delicious and usually the place is packed with people.
Ok thats all for today im off to play audition.
Looking forward to family buffet on the 26th,hope i still have enough money untill then =x(opps hope ger dun see this).

Pictures

2009-02-19T22:15:00.001+08:00

My pretty cousins vivian and grace ^^

Ooo~swimming trip!"Beware of the peeping laoer"(quoted from vivian) good thing he not dare or else =x

Me and Ger

Dun have me and sheryl de pic so i replace it with this(omg my pimples arghh >.<)

Remember this?!?!?!lol i didnt want to pose this as my face looks FAT!!!ARGHH!!!

Current me!Hope i am thinner T.T

why!!!

2009-02-19T20:00:00.001+08:00

How must my audition bf always be younger than me.
They get younger and younger every time.
Now i have to spend my dens just to break up T.T.
I shouldnt have listened to eka again to accept a stranger`s couple request.
From now on,i shall reject reject and reject!
Omg it sounds so bad,but hahas i guess im fated to be single in audition.
The arrogant,high taste,emo, angelic_ruby can never get a bf that suits her taste i guess.
She like ponytail guys however ponytail guys shun her as she is not a ponytail girl.
Well due to her personality,she hates to copycat and likes being unique,as in the "one and only".
Ya?so i guess she might as well be a lao gu pou.
So she only belongs to me and only me!
Hahaha,ok this is such a random post and i guess im bored thats why i posted this.

Feelings

2009-02-17T21:35:00.002+08:00

Singer:Dream
Song:My Will
From Inuyasha Soundtrack

Quietly awakening...
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...
Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance
The way I see before me is always blocked
Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up,
My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.
If there is such a thing as "eternity,"
I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way.
Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy
I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.
I think of you
and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...
I've known all too well about pretending to be strong.
But since then, my doubts have vanished.
There's definitely things I want to show you
And so many words I want to hear
I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry
So I'll stop waiting
and seize my "chance."
I think of you,
and I feel like that alone is enough
to make my heart grow stronger.
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...
I think of you
and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday
it definitely will...
Believe. la la la la la la...
Believe. la la la la la la...
Believe. la la la la la la...

I fell in love with this song ever since i first heard it.Even though i do not understand the meaning of this song at first,i could somehow feel related to this song.Didnt know why but after seeing the lyrics of this song,i felt it so suits my feelings hahas!After so many years this is still one of my favourite songs from inuyasha.I hope kbox have this song so one day i can go with my bunch of primary school bestfriends to sing this song.Its one of my wish since so long ago.So ya i guess im back to playing audition and listen to songs!

Pictures

2009-02-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

Pictures taken on 6/2/09 Mahjong session.

Credit goes to me(hehes =x) the cameraman and germaine for some of the pictures.

100th post!

2009-02-08T14:21:00.001+08:00

Congrats to me reaching my 100th post.
Today im going to talk about Tadase Hotori,Sasuke Uchiha,Gary,Ash,Eagle,Zero,Loki and so on.

This is Tadase Hotori a charming,gentle and prince-like character of shugo chara.

Currently my dream guy as he is faithful,protective,caring,kind,gentle and holds up to justice.

One negative point about him is he is too young lol.

This is Prince.

Somehow i think he is the human version of Tadase.

They do have a lot of similarities.

Similarity no 1:Both are nicknamed Prince(but dun call Tadase that or...)

Similarity no 2:They are both from the same horoscope.

Similarity no 3:Their hairstyle is so alike!!!The parting is even on the same side.

I think there are more but i better move on to SASUKE >.<

Um this picture is a little...

Well i prefer the "sorry girls im gay" one better hahas.

Sasuke Uchiha,is a child prodigy(thats one of the things i like about him xD),cool(yup!yup!),strong,protective(of his clan) and coldhearted(?) guy.

Im not sure about the "coldhearted" part but he is a confusing person.

I know many people hate him because of his aggrogance and coldheartedness but i guess is due to his sad past.

I kind of pity him.

But i hate his aggrogance and easy to get jealous.

What i like about him most is he never seem interested in girls,that is what make him cool i guess hahas.

But he seem to care alot about naruto(omg hes gay!!!COOL HAHAS).

Ok i going a little off topic.

Now to ZERO

What i like about Zero is his silvery hair.

And particulary because of Kaname.

Because i choose him over the GAY KANAME!!!

I just dislike Kaname because he seem to act "nice" when he is actually a evil guy.

I do not think Zero is bad but he seem to act that way.

In my opinion,he is kind of similar to sasuke in some way.

Another pityful guy.

I blog this just because i feel like talking about Tadase because of my new skin hehes.

Oh and here are some pictures of my favourite couples

Mahjong session

2009-02-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

Great day today.
But still lose $6 to the banker marcus!
At first lose more but i managed to clear them.
Marcus so lucky loh all our money he eat T.T.
And Germaine and Sheryl cook curry rice for us.
Thank you two so much!
In order to cook a meal for us,both of you put in effort to buy the ingredients and cook for us.
I really appreciated it as you two were willing to cook for us.
Hope my future bf is like that hahas.
Dunno whether you guys will see this but im sure you will.
Because im shy to tell you guys that i really appreciated it.
It sounds so wrong coming out from my mouth.
Im sure both of you will feel weird too.
So i hope you two sees this hahas.
I will continue more details tomorrow xD.

keeping myself busy!

2009-02-04T19:22:00.000+08:00

It was fun when my cousin vivian and grace came to visit.
Hope they could stay longer or we will have to wait for a long time till we meet each other again.
Time flies when u are having fun =(.
Had fun taking the feris wheel for the first time and went to night safari.
Took plenty of neoprints too o.O.
Dunno why my scanner not working so cant post.
But the neoprint de background is very nice!
Two years ago we also took neoprint i found out that we have changed a little.
Like two years ago my hair was long and theirs was short.
And now my hair is short while theirs is long.
But one thing didnt change,they are still as skinny as before!
I feel fat standing beside them,especially my face too much fats!
My mum says its baby fats so its ok but its not ok with me.
I dun like fat face!
Im going to slim down,last time my face wasnt as fat.
Im very busy nowadays hahas.
With my favourite video making of course!
Um dun get the wrong idea,is making amvs.
One is make "our family video" as a memory of all the times we had as classmates and schoolmates in north vista.
The video starring the people in the "hei" family...
Me(the proud maker of the video =x)
Germaine(the little baby bear aka my granddaughter)
Sheryl(my daughter)
Vivian(my daughter also)
Weiying(My sis)
Marcus(my illegimate grandson so i can call him grandbasterd hahas)
Gabriel(same status as marcus hahas)
Wenhui(my future granddaughter in law?)
I guess thats all hahas...
MJ session on fri must remember to bring ur cam ger!
I need more pictures because the song very long!
Oh and not to forget my upcoming amvs of...
Ash and misty
Sasuke and Sai
Sasuke and Naruto
Sasuke and Sakura
Sasuke individual video
Sakura and Sai
Amu and Tadase
Kukai and Yaya
Ikuto and utau/Lulu muahaha =D
Tsuna and Haru
Hikaru and Eagle
Nina and Kaji
Ok i think i have more that i want to make but i just focus on all these is going to make me real busy already.
So my priority is put on "family" video and "ash and misty" first hahas.
Ok im off to make pictures and making my vid lalala.

Its all my fault =(!

2009-01-27T19:15:00.003+08:00

I shouldnt have seen the message.
I shouldnt have replied the message.
I shouldnt have said "yes".
Its all my fault all the tension occured.
So i hope all the tension stops.
My cousins are coming over tomorrow,i hope these few days will be a happy and memorable day for them.
I also hope to play a good host.
Maybe its like what they say "i gain i lose".
I had a happy time two days ago winning during the gambling session.
However,things didnt turn out "happy" today.
"Maybe this is why im never happy".
Something may make me feel happy today,but miserable on the next day.
Like what people usually says "One happy the other sad".
I am afriad to lose "something",that is why i am afriad to live life happy everyday.
Ok i seem pestimistic rather than the confident and optimistic germaine says i am.
Germaine i am not as optimistic as i think i am hahas!
I worry every single day.
Like when "the end of the world comes" what should i do?
I dun want to die!!!
I have too many things i havnt accomplish!
But there is saying that if you want to live longer u have to suffer living on earth.
But i do not want to suffer miserably everyday!!!
If i suffer miserably everyday,then what is the point of living?
My cousin just says i look "miserable" today,i think she means i look kind of sad.
OMG such a young kid can tell?
LOL actually i am not sad but just kind of worried.
I worry of a lot of things i just wish i can stop worrying!
Haix sure wish i was younger,the "me" of the past is always so carefree.
Haix but time cant turn back.
Feel better after posting it out.
I shall think about our kbox trip instead!
And my cousin coming over to visit =D!
Must wait for me ok germaine and MY!
And remember dun wear GREEN LOL!

Which is better

2009-01-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

Sentosa or go punggol fly kite?

Beware!

2009-01-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

Dun come near me i might bite hahas!
I must be seriously bored to be feeling this way.
Stuffing myself at home the whole day is just unbearable.
Anyway i should not feel sad/angry cause chinese new year is coming.
But anyway its going to be boring anyway untill vivian and grace comes to singapore.
Feeling sad cause need to wait till feb then can go kbox and take neoprints.
Haix i shall not dwell on it.
I am going to remember to smile and "greet the elders".
EWW i hate doing that to some of them,i rather dun take the ang baos and dun go bai nian.
I shall not be happy just cause i have free money.
I am going to be independant,its time for me to learn how to provide for myself and i will do just that!
I do not want to rely on anybody except myself even if there is a steady back for me to lean on.
I feel more comfortable and happy by earning things through my own hardwork.
Its time for me to grow and plan for my future.
At least now i have a clear mindset of what i want to pursue.
"Its time for me to turn a deaf ear and follow the path my heart leads."
"Stand my ground and walk alone towards the future ahead of me."

Grrrrr

2009-01-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

Dun know why but i am so angry!!!
Nowadays i keep moodswinging and hyperactive.
Something`s seriously wrong with me and i think need a psychaitrist.
Or im going to turn into a mental gonecase.
I seriously need something to do like a job!

I love dun forget the lyrics!

2009-01-15T22:03:00.001+08:00

I love this song because its very meaningful.

Wonder where i can find the full version without people talking inside it.

Unlike most people who likes the main theme song i like this 插曲 better.

Hahas maybe i really prefer 插曲 then main theme song.

插曲 usually seem more meaningful to me.

And finally the "月娘陈锡" really tells something that is realistic in real life.

Ok my com cant type chinese so i will have to use pinyin.

Although "you qing ren bu neng zhong cheng juan shu" i think that as long as they have each other in their hearts that will be enough.

I think that 月娘 and 陈锡 cant be together is the ideal ending.

Not exactly "ideal" or what i wanted but i think it is "for the best".

I still think the main reason why 月娘 doesnt want to end up with 陈锡 is because of 玉珠.

It isnt her fault that 玉珠 got tortured by robert zhang but if 玉珠 didnt help her and 陈锡 elope that day the one would have been tortured will be 月娘 herself.

Afterall she is robert zhang`s target(that damm basterd!!!).

Even if 月娘 get together with 陈锡 i dun think she will be happy.

She will only keep feeling guilty and only feel worse.

And she spare a thought for him because she doesnt want his family to end up being complicated and unhappy.

Meiyu is also there to ruin their relationship.

However,they are all happy and sucessful in the end even though they didnt end up together.

I feel that as long as they have each other in their hearts it will be enough.

This ending is for the best.

I also think the 3 minutes recap is crap,ruin the entire show arghh!

I hope Little Nyonya fans can accept this ending.

As long as both of them are happy in the end,i think that is what that matters.

And also this song explains it all!

And i also love "dun forget the lyrics" very much!

Hope i can join hahas!

Always will be very high when watching and looking forward to next week`s episode!

Time to save!

2009-01-14T23:17:00.001+08:00

Been spending a lot of money lately.

Its time for me to save up for a laptop when i go to poly i will need it.

Haix if i was lucky i would have won it on the lucky draw during the 2009 countdown party.

Then i can use my salary for other uses.

Every year lose to an auntie,last year won tv this year win laptop.

Well at least i won a thumbdrive.
Sigh.

Going to work harder to earn the money!

Well i hope in the coming year i will be less complacecent and more hardworking.

Also i hope my brain and i grows more mature,i am just too silly and naive.

I hope to think normally,instead of having a very twisted and strange mind.

Sometimes i dun even understand why i think out of the ordinary.

Well afterall i dun think society doesnt accept abnormal thinking people.

I think i will just go with the flow and come back to reality.

Aliens and fairies do not exist in your world liling!

Also i hope not to be such a spentthift.

AND LASTLY STOP THINKING THE WORLD HAD BEEN UNFAIR TO YOU FOR MANY REASONS AND THAT YOU ARE DAMM UNLUCKY!!!

Although i feel that some part of the world have been unfair to me.

ARGHH i am not going to think about it,makes me feel pathetic and upset.

And lastly,dun let ur opportunity slip away from your hands ever again.

This is your last chance.

Treasure it.

The world is realistic one wrong move and there is no u turn back.

So treasure whatever you have

And stay optimistic and cheerful.

Somehow that is what makes one shine.

Oh and i also hope i dun get married before 25 and hope what they say is not true!

HAHAHA!

Without you guys around who will joke,laugh,play,talk,crap,shout,scream with me =(.

Once again loneliness engulf me.

Let fate decide

2009-01-14T22:16:00.001+08:00

Which poly am i fated to go into
Temasek,Ngee Ann,Singapore,Nanyang or Republic?

I love prince!

2009-01-13T20:35:00.003+08:00

Very random post.

Saw the magazine and lollipop and wanted it very much.

But its so ex =(.

PRINCE *_*

OMG and there`s sasuke too!

Off day

2009-01-13T20:09:00.007+08:00

Didnt went to work today.

Went to vivo and meet vivian and gang then went to Clarke Quay to meet sheryl and germaine.

Love the view of the Singapore River.

Ahh i cant change the password of the diary!

Must keep the diary away from u two =x.

Our hair was damm messy due to the wind.

Haix i will miss you guys so much when we are seperated =(.

Hope we get into the same poly and same course.

Should i be sad or happy?

2009-01-13T12:17:00.002+08:00

Results are out and i dun think i did fantastically.
L1R4=19 Haix and i cant get into a JC.
I dun know why but poly courses dun interest me.
I always think that by going to a JC,the people there will carve a pathway for me to follow.
If i want to become a teacher in future,what poly courses will help me acchieve that?
Almost all teachers graduated from JCs.
Now i hope that i really retain!
But since i can go into poly,i shall register as a private candidate.
Maybe if i get better results next year,i can go to other courses/institution.
Think i shall let myself ponder for awhile and later meet vivian they all at vivo.
I shall remember 12 Jan for life!

Sighs!

2009-01-07T18:35:00.003+08:00

Sigh,sigh,sigh.
Deffinately going out this weekend to relieve stress.
Or else i might go crazy!
Going to call germaine tonight.
Maybe talking to her has a calming effect,makes me feel less stressful.
I miss all those slacking days!

busy busy busy

2009-01-02T18:51:00.002+08:00

So busy these days cant find the time to blog.
If i do have the time i will blog everything xD.
Well so happy that i finally receive my first pay ^_^.
Although it is very tough for the company at this moment,i hope it can make it through the crisis and HUAT AH!
Hahas anyway wish everyone a smooth journey this 2009 and many years to come.
Im off busying with all my other activities such as playing audition.
Tata~ will be back soon xD.

Happy Birthday Grace!

2008-12-23T19:36:00.002+08:00

Its my cousin birthday didnt get to chat with her.
She went to Hongkong(so good) hahas.
Wonder if shes back i shall go online and take a look.

finally a break and enjoy my kitkat hahas

2008-12-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

Its been a very long time since i blog.
And this time i felt very motivated.
I have been very busy working and i finally spare time to blog.
There are a lot of movies i wanted to watch but the problem lie with time and money =(.
Getting out to work made me realised a lot of things,and i appreciate the experience that i have gained.
Well at least i learnt something.
I would like to thank auntie Jasmine for taking such good care of me,she`s a very nice and kind person i would say she is a person that is hard to find and i have always long for this person to appear.
She is someone who believes in herself,kindhearted and most importantly she`s not a "hyprocrite."
I also believe it is very tough to be a good person,cause some "setbacks" may prevent someone from doing so.
That is why i kind of admire her i really hope there are more people like her around.
Meaning i hope that there are more good people in this world ^_^.
Feel very pai seh that she usually treats me during lunch time.
I think i will buy chocolates as a christmas gift to thank her for taking such good care of me.
Oh i would also like to thank the people there who take such good care of me too hahas.
Cant believe i receive such an expensive christmas gift as i do not really celebrate christmas and i can only remember the christmas gifts that i receive from lingyu and yongling.
And also a barbie doll from my neighbour it was my one and only barbie doll as i do not really like dolls.
I prefer stuff toys hahas.
This year i receive $200+ as my christmas gift.
Wonder if it is part of my pay or it is really my christmas gift.
I was stunned when i open the ang bao.
But i really want to thank the bosses for the christmas gift,really appreciate the thought of them giving me the christmas gift.
Auntie Jasmine even want to give me hamsters,i was really happy when i hear this and what made me even happier is that my mum agreed to let me keep them.
And the hamsters are the kind that look like winter white hamster.
The colour is white with grey spots.
Omg so cute!
Dunno if ger wants to go out with me tomorrow.
I hope she does as it`s been a long time since we see each other.
Ur ah gong misses you hahas.
Oh and dez still owe me a meal but i was so busy i couldnt make it.
So sorry =(.
Anyway christmas is coming hope that everyone have a merry christmas!

lalala

2008-11-27T19:22:00.003+08:00

Going malaysia this sat finally i got something interesting that i can do ^^.
Do not know when i will come back,should be quite long and i will miss my dear com =(.
Cant bear to part with it,but i hope i will enjoy myself in malaysia,i shall go hunting for sasuke =D.
Sasuke please wait for me in malaysia!
Being able to see my cousins again is great!
I wonder if they have changed its been two years.

Audi please come back T.T

2008-11-26T21:29:00.002+08:00

Audi is not done patching sobs T.T.

Im so bored!!!

I miss my dear anggie pls audi faster patch T.T.

BORED!!!

2008-11-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

Finally i get to use the com.
Well guess what!
Audition`s is undergoing maintenance and i wont be able to play =(.
SIANX!!!
Audition please come back asap!!!

Hope i find a job soon so bored =(

2008-11-25T21:55:00.006+08:00

Before O`s

Miss my long hair hope it grow longer asap.

So sad yesterday eka said there is a ultra cute sasuke plush in riverale mall but its all sold out!!!T.T so today i post a picture of me and my beloved sasuke hahas ^^.

What an extremely unlucky day![Sachi version]

2008-10-10T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hi.
Im sachi aka the sasuke stuff toy living in liling`s house.
My owner is damm pissed so to prevent her from scolding vulgarities in her blog and spoil her "reputation" of being a fine lady,im here on her behalf to post the issue of her being extremely unlucky.
Actually its partly my fault.
Although she ensured me that i was not to blame,but it was "sasuke" who was "partly me" who started the issue.
It all happened when she was on her way back to school,after having a scrumtious meal at macdonalds when she happened to pass by seven eleven.
With extra change in her pocket,she decided to try her luck on getting a yellow mushroom.
However,the mushroom vending machine was no longer there and changed to other kinds.
That is when the problem arises.
She saw a naruto vending machine with extremely "cool" sasuke in it.
That cool pose was one that she had never seen on the internet.
Thats was when she had a burning desire to get hold of that keychain.
However,things did not went smoothly.
Not only was she not able to get hold of sasuke after spending a total of $11,she was extremely pissed by the fact that she had 7 out of 11 naruto keychains and the vending machine cheated her of $1 after she started swearing at it.
In addition,the shop keeper keep chasing her away.
She was thankful to the auntie who tried to help her retrieve her cheated money back by helping her hit the machine several times.
However the money went in and never came back,the vending machine is such a scammer!
I think she went a little bersek as her friend germaine and her keep laughing despite the fact that she was damm pissed off by the machine.
But the atmosphere at that time was extremely hilarious.
I feel sorry yet relieved that she wasnt able to get the sasuke keychain she wanted.
I feel sorry seeing her being upset that she wasnt able to get the keychain she wanted and got soo many narutos lying in her house right now that is giving her a headace now that she`s broke because of them.
At the same time i felt relieved as i was afraid that she might be too obsessed with the keychain if she got it and started to neglect me =(.
I still hope that she would not be so unlucky the next time she lays her hands on another vending machine.
She says she wont stop untill she gets one.
What perseverance *sigh*
Opps i gotta go now,needed to calm her down seeya all nextime!

Finally

2008-09-25T16:25:00.002+08:00

Hahas after so many days,finally i can blog and post our "happy family" pictures.

Envious that we are such a rich,harmonious and happy family?
Well i think most will =x.

What we did

2008-09-15T22:03:00.007+08:00

Lols finally fave enough pictures for me to complete my video making!Love the big squirrel eyes lols!think i post it next time hahas.

So random hahas

2008-09-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

Omg!!!I love this video so damm much.

This is what i call a professional and cute video.

Kudos to the video maker that person is such a pro!!!

Sasusaku is sooooo cute and i think im going to get a bashing up from some of my friends and my brother will sooooo hate me as i keep ranting good things about sasuke.

Why?Because i like sasuke LOL!

And he love naruto too much that`s why he keep bashing sasuke.

Very gay right?

LOL but actually his favourite is still kakashi sensei.

And that is such a pity.

LOL in the past i used to dislike naruto as it seemed like a boring show.

And my opinion havnt changed a bit.

In my opinion this show is about 3 boring ninjas training and an annoying and sickening bitch *sakura* who treats naruto badly who always goes around ranting about *sasuke*and that emo/gay/arrogant/weird/son of the bitch who doesnt give a damm just makes me turn off the tv LOL.In addition,the frequent criticism of the two S by my friends just made me ignore the show totally no matter how much people say the show is nice blah blah blah.

What made me changed my opinion about naruto?

IS GROWN UP SASUKE IN OROCHIMARU-GAY OUTFIT!

LOL i dun like his blue shirt white pants oufit because i dun like his white pants so i dislike him.

I sound very weird eh?

When 3 years ago people were obsessed with this blue shirt white pants "cool" sasuke however my friends hated him and cant wait to kick him out of the show while i dun give a damm about this show LOL.

Now everybody wants sasuke gone while i started liking him in orochimaru outfit LOL.

Maybe because i sympatize/pity him.

I cant imagine having a disgusting psycho as your sensei.

Even so,he is also gay and looks like he is going to rape sasuke anytime.

Well that is also the reason why he wanted him.

Have you ever heard him say "im desperate for sasuke`s body?" LOL.

Ok i think im starting to sound like the commenters of youtube.

Those people always made me cracked up although most of the times i see sacastic comments on episodes of naruto.

Cant be blamed i will explain the reasons next time as im lazy to post XD.

And i think i better stay away from the com soon as i think im going to get bashed after saying all these *goes into hiding* =D.

Oh and im apologize for not being able to make it for the movie trip as i have physics lesson.

So sorry vivian for telling you at the last minute =(.

The Blogger Me Is Back!

2008-08-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm decided to post since it is so long since i have updated.
I got nothing much to say as usual.
Only being lectured the day before teacher`s day was not a good experience.
I do not want to talk about that.
Went to do art but the room was not available.
So i headed home however in the beginning i was going to meet ly but i was unable to make it =(.
So sorry =(.
Today`s teacher`s day was interesting,i kind of enjoyed it.
At least it was able to put a little smile on my face.
Vivian suggested to watch a movie called phobia,heard people talking about it,it seemed to be nice.
Hmm anybody else interested to go?
The more the merrier hahas =D.

National Day Carnival

2008-08-08T22:15:00.002+08:00

Today was quite fun!
Why?Because i get to roller blade again after so long.
I know im a noob at roller blading,but at least i know the basic and i can walk a little and i can balance!
Well in the end,everyone who are first time skaters know how to balance and thats good!
What makes me happier is that i didnt fall!
I nearly fell but managed to find a wall or human for support!Hahas!
Im sure no one regretted that i introduced them to roller blading hahas =D,because its like so fun(although im still a newbie)
Hmm,after roller blading we even got to take a full family photo for the first time!Hahas.
The *triple couple* is one of the main attraction.
If only we can get marcus and gabriel`s "father" and maria to take the photo so the family photo will be more perfect.
Here comes the olympics.
Although it does not interest me but it only happens once in a awhile so its a happy event!
And im going to have buffet tomorrow yay!

Haix

2008-08-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

I think im getting a little flu again.
I`ll make sure i get myself recovered by tomorrow!
I just dislike that i fall sick easily,althoughi get recovered quickly.
It is just unfair that i have been watching and ensuring that i eat the right food,practice hygience but in the end i still can`t be free from getting attacked by viruses.
Tomorrow`s the day before national day!Yay!
I also do not wish for the viruses to spoil my day.
So please stay away from me untill my o levels are over ok?
And do not unneccesary let me fall sick frequently.
I hate falling sick,i really dislike it,there was this once i fall sick terribly during the first prelim,it has affected me tremendously and i make sure to keep myself as healthy as possible,the feeling is just terrible.
I know im making a big fuss out of it,but one will never understand the feeling of falling terribly sick if one had not experienced it themselves.
I should also have expected that something is wrong with me,i have been sneezing unneccesarily lately,i know im allergic to dust but there can`t be that much dust in the air or is there?
Overall,all i have to say is i hate falling sick,dust and perfumes!
My little wish is hoping that the air will be fresher =D and i have a stronger imune system.
I think it isnt to much to ask for right?
Last but not least i want to wish all a happy national day!=D

I love to eat!

2008-08-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

Went to Mos burger yesterday.
The food was yummy!
Hahas i love Mos burger!
I think im going there again soon.
Cannot resist the bugers there.
Almost everybody stayed back for art and im here slacking.
Think i will stay back from tomorrow onwards,hope i finish my work soon.
Last but not least,i changed blog song again =).

The importance of privacy

2008-07-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

I got pissed off a little.
The littlest one/mummy`s boy of the family always come and see what i am doing with the computer(eg.i am watching anime/drama he will stand there and watch and when i ask him why he came into the room/or what he look at the computer,he will use excuse saying he is finding his things such as stationary.)
I mean like hello please...you are sort of eavesdropping but using your eyes,see say see la,i ask you,you just stand at a corner saying you are finding your stuffs when you are kpoing and see what others are doing and dun wan admit it.
I know i said it in a harsh tone,because i know you are looking at the computer and i hate people peeking at what i am doing.
Not that i am seeing any illegal or unauthorised stuffs,but i just don`t like it.
It sorts of intrudes my privacy,but i can accept people looking at my smses.
However,i dislike people peeking at what i am doing with the computer without asking a "eh what are you doing" or "can i see?".
I just cannot stand it,i am sure people with younger brothers such as ger will also understand.
Since i know he is wasting his time staring and see what i am doing which is nothing much because i am watching anime and its not his favourite naruto,so i dont get why little brothers like intruding into others privacy,its just wrong without even asking for permission!
Although i know sometimes i am also a little busybody,but what pisses me off is when i ask him what he is doing here or when i know he is standing there and i got pissed off and ask him to get lost,he shouted back and my mum heard him and presume that he is right and i am wrong!
She says im being sensitive,no im not i just don`t like people peeking into what i am doing without permission and when i ask for a reason,that person gave attitude and shouted back!
WTF(ok i know i should not use this),but this is what i felt at that time.
I felt much better now after i blog about this and i got to thank him for giving me a topic to write about LOL!
But i am still not open minded to bad attitude when intruding into other`s privacy!
Hmm ok i think that`s all hahas.
Tomorrow do not need to go to school,and should i cut my hair after it had finally grow?
Oh and i guess i should make myself LESS or NO MORE A BUSYBODY after this incident,because i do not want to be someone that pisses others off because of their busybodyness as people always relate "a busybody" and "someone who intrudes others privacy without permission" be on the same boat.
But in my opinion,my way of being busybody is a way of caring for others.
AHH >.<>

Sweet yet bitter?Bitter yet sweet?Or sweet and bitter?

2008-07-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

Been watching anime and drawing.
Didnt know why i started watching marmalade boy again,at first i thought it would be boring because of the 76 long episodes and i am aware of the ending.
Usually i am only interested in the beggining and ending of the drama and then i stopped watching =D.
However,now i realised,it is not the beggining and the ending that it`s important,it`s the process.
I realised i shouldnt judge a series on whether it is good or bad by it`s beggining and ending but i should watch the whole series and judge the show based on that.
Just like shugo chara,at first i thought it was good,but it end up being extra boring.
Maybe it`s because the manga and the anime is kind of the same.
So,after watching for two days,i decided to stop watching.
Overall,kei is the best and the most pityful =(.
And i do not know why i have a strong feeling towards miki that she is like someone i know.
And yuu sucks,maybe he is a little ok,but i used to dislike him.
There is a nice song in piano version,hope ger can play it for me,gotta find the music sheet.
It`s really nice in piano version!

A new project

2008-07-24T22:50:00.001+08:00

I seem to forget to post the sports day photos and germaine`s bd photos.

And dun worry ger,i will keep my promise in making that "family photo",just needs more pictures.

PS i like triangles =D.*hidden meaning*

OH~OH~OH~I want to be a copycat and change blogskins too =D.

Here they are...

Girls only?

Yellow odd one out

Hmm?

Busy at work

Vivian and me

Indrani and birthday girl!!!

Hahas!This uncle can`t get the fire to start!

Busy at work 2

One big family!!!

Me and Weiying

Woo Hoo~

2008-07-24T18:43:00.000+08:00

Woo Hoo~Going to gym tomorrow and no prelims tomorrow!!!YEAH!!!
Hmm.I shouldnt be too happy cause my o`s are not over yet =(.
And i get to eat outside food for dinner tomorrow!!!
Not that i dun like homecook food but its good to have a change.
It was nice using photobooth[yeah i think that`s the name xD].
Oh and my last request is hope that i see misty in tonight`s episode,hope the writers do not disapoint me.
Hmm did something evil but it was entertainment to me,i shall not talk about it =D.

changed blog song!

2008-07-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

Been doing art this few days,time is running out,i hope i finish my work soon!
Haix stressed by prelims,especially maths arghh!!!I dun like maths!!!Tomorrow still have maths xD.
Hmm got nothing to blog about i guess i will stop here.Hahas.
And im so happy i finally get access to imeem and change my blog song =D.

arent they cute?

2008-07-13T21:38:00.013+08:00

All look great in this picture,miyabi looks pretty in this one,so is my favourite and extremly cute risako!

Cute design =)

ahh risako!so pretty and cool!>.<

Hmm can say that they are my idols,however they are all the same age as me except saki is older than me by a year and risako and yurina is younger than me xD.

Im a fan of their songs,although they are not very popular,but their songs are nice!

In addition,they are so young!OMG same age as me!!!

And they started singing around 8-10.

My favourite of them all!

Sugaya Risako ahh!!!>.<

PS:I not les xD

Now for the hotie ikuta toma!!!

Oguri Shun aka sano is not bad too!
But i guess toma is better hahas.
Here are the pictures of nakatsu,just for you wenhui,arent u happy?
Hana kimi jap rocks!
Although toma is hot,i like the korean boy jang geun suk better!

hmm...

2008-07-11T23:00:00.013+08:00

I just wanted to thank everybody who have helped me,may it be past,present or future?

And i am happy i got cai tou aka bit bit back,and thank you vivian for getting the mushroom for me,finally cai tou has a partner[and also future girlfriend/boyfriend] and it wont be lonely anymore =)

Pictures

This is me and my "bestfriend",just joking!=x and the crazy things we did in the art room xD.

What a lovely couple,don`t you think so vivian?

Um...random,just wanted to see myself in specs hahas.

My cute cousin hahas.

I seldom post pictures,dun wan to appear too zi lian xD,although germaine says there are a lot of them in my phone.

Only will post once in a blue moon,when i feel like it hahas.